Another Interesting Find...

[ocs_midnight]

Well, as you can see below I found a letter she wrote me a long time ago when I was diggin around in my old email. So that was cool. Well I was digging around again and I found this. Just another thing to show how much she cared about me, which just doesn't seem to fit her current...blah can't think of a good word, current truth? Iono, anyway here

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Joshie

[the_batarded1]

lol ok I am gonna stick with Murchie! lol anywho you are seriously spendin' too much time thinkin' about this, I mean yeah I know all that stuff she told you about never falling out of love with you is hard to "forget" but Josh you met her on the net she is older and she doesn't live near you, that is a good and easy combo for her to be able to tell you one thing and do another. All I am saying is don't spend so much time stressin' over her because she might not be stressin' over you. You just need to keep yourself busy or talk to your friends ya know think about other potential ppl to get with or sumthin' to just get her off your mind! Josh, We are young and we are too young to be worried about stuff like this. Josh, CARPE DIEM!! with all that said in love talk to ya lata! and hope this wasn't harsh!
love,
Britt

Re: Joshie

[ma_a_salama]

lol you hope this wasn't too harsh? i applaud you for speaking your mind. truth might hurt sometimes.

[ma_a_salama]

I understand what you mean by "it just doesn't fit". After i sent stu the letter telling him how he sometimes made me feel, he wrote back saying that he "didn't love me and was only using me so he could watch me stumble over my emotions because he was an evil bastard." at first it angered me, but then thinking back on all our "memories" or whatever you wanna call it i knew it couldn't be true. it didn't fit. so then i wrote him back a nice letter and he said "this isn't right, you were supposed to hate me" haha he thought that me hating him would be easier for my emotions or what not...funny boy that one is. grrr...i'm babbling. anyways the point of this post was to convey to you my experiences with things that didn't fit right. so i know what you mean. But like Brittne'y said Josh, hold on. you know what. i'm gonna speak my mind even if it is a little harsh. cruel to be kind...er rather, honest

[ocs_midnight]

lol, no no no! I don't hate you guys. Your being good friends and speaking your minds and telling me what you really think and I appreciate that. However I must say I agree more with your comment Tasha than Brittney's ;o You know, I worry to that I may be stuck on her forever. If indeed she no longer has feelings for me I honestly don't know what I'll do or say. It's not like I force myself to stay stuck, its an internal mental thingy that I can't change by force. I do love her, very much and I hope that she does still care for me but that she was just trying to make things easier. If she says that indeed she no longer does have feelings for me I guess I'll accept it and try to move on at least a little. We always talked that if one of us stopped loving the other that we would continue to be friends and in a few years when I'm off to college we could talk about possibly getting together again, so I suppose if she doesn't still feel the same I'll go on that plan. It's just really complicated and its hard for me to explain. She was the

Josh, kid I love you but seriously.

[ks4menotu]

So Josh you back at it again. I am going to be brutally honest like only I can be. Josh I know so much about this whole crappy situation and I have heard you talk about her for over a year. Josh I have heard so much of this crap. She doesn't give a crap about you. She didn't know what love ment she might have thought she loved you but she doesn't have that feeling that she thought was love anymore. It apprent to me and I don't understand how it's not apparent to you. Josh she's dated other guys. That's a BIG indicator to me that she doens't care about you. If you were the only one her then she wouldn't need someone there. She's stringing you along again like only she knows how to do. Remember all thoes times she would talk about all the other guys. Remember how she wrote on her xanga about how the long distance thing didn't work for her. She through with you in that way Josh and the only reason she keeps you around know is because she's too dependent on other people. She isn't strong enough to move on and she isn't strong enough to be