Sigh

[oddlyoddish]

I wonder if my mind is starting to go... Starting with earlier when I was in the bathroom.

So, lately I've been peeing in my dreams when I really need to go and when I do, part of my mind worries that I actually did just pee. When I was in the bathroom earlier, I had the sudden fear of "... Am I supposed to be peeing here? Is this right?"

I don't

Comments

[chicki_marshies]

[oddlyoddish]

This does pretty much accurately describe it and I know I have these issues. It's all about actually making myself fix them... A lot of it is on the fear of the last big relationship I was in. I'm terrified that the same thing will happen again if I go with the same attitude that I had then... It's just reflex, instinct, that has me in the way I am - a puppy that's been kicked too many times will automatically flinch back from a boot that moves.

[chicki_marshies]

[oddlyoddish]

With this one, it's that I actually really, really need to fucking pee, lol. When I wake up, I have to make a mad dash to the bathroom.