Ballykissangel - The paths we used to tread
Title: The paths we used to tread
Fandom: Ballykissangel
Pairing: Jenny/Peter
Rating: PG
Word Count: 343
Summary: it’s inevitable that she goes to ireland to find him.
written for the challenge at fanfic_luckydip
He stands up there and tells the congregation that he’s leaving-going to Ireland. She presses her lips together and looks down. Without meaning to, his eyes move to her face, but she doesn’t look at him. He tries to pull himself together.
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Two days later, she goes to confession to see him, but he’s already left. It’s inevitable that she goes to Ireland to find him.
*
She is the archetypal girl who finds out the man she is having an affair with has a wife and children at home, except that his family is the church. And maybe late night talks over wine don’t constitute an affair, but to her they do, and when she lets her hand brush his she knows that it’s the same for him.
*
She’s glad she doesn’t have to be the bigger person, but it also makes her sick inside. All she wants is for him to love her, and the fact that he loves religion more (or at least believes he does, which is the same thing) is like a slap in the face. Maybe he can fall out of love so easily, but she can’t.
*
When she looks at his sparse bed with the crucifix above it, she tries to imagine them making love on it and cannot.
*
She has a hard time understanding how everything suddenly changed. It seems like they were happy (they were happy), and she doesn’t know what made him decide to break her heart.
Or maybe he doesn’t know that’s what he’s done.
*
Her parents don’t notice when she comes home. They thought she was staying with friends, and she was. Almost. They don’t know that she might not have come home, that she very well could have stayed in Ireland, or gone anywhere else if he’d asked (Scotland, Africa; it wouldn’t have mattered). She hates them a little for not noticing, but knows the anger is misplaced.
She goes back to her life but doesn’t go to mass again. She was never one for church.
Fandom: Ballykissangel
Pairing: Jenny/Peter
Rating: PG
Word Count: 343
Summary: it’s inevitable that she goes to ireland to find him.
written for the challenge at fanfic_luckydip
He stands up there and tells the congregation that he’s leaving-going to Ireland. She presses her lips together and looks down. Without meaning to, his eyes move to her face, but she doesn’t look at him. He tries to pull himself together.
*
Two days later, she goes to confession to see him, but he’s already left. It’s inevitable that she goes to Ireland to find him.
*
She is the archetypal girl who finds out the man she is having an affair with has a wife and children at home, except that his family is the church. And maybe late night talks over wine don’t constitute an affair, but to her they do, and when she lets her hand brush his she knows that it’s the same for him.
*
She’s glad she doesn’t have to be the bigger person, but it also makes her sick inside. All she wants is for him to love her, and the fact that he loves religion more (or at least believes he does, which is the same thing) is like a slap in the face. Maybe he can fall out of love so easily, but she can’t.
*
When she looks at his sparse bed with the crucifix above it, she tries to imagine them making love on it and cannot.
*
She has a hard time understanding how everything suddenly changed. It seems like they were happy (they were happy), and she doesn’t know what made him decide to break her heart.
Or maybe he doesn’t know that’s what he’s done.
*
Her parents don’t notice when she comes home. They thought she was staying with friends, and she was. Almost. They don’t know that she might not have come home, that she very well could have stayed in Ireland, or gone anywhere else if he’d asked (Scotland, Africa; it wouldn’t have mattered). She hates them a little for not noticing, but knows the anger is misplaced.
She goes back to her life but doesn’t go to mass again. She was never one for church.