a. penmanship definitely lacking
b. bow-tying finesse also lacking

"you make a woman sound like a dented fender, or something ( Read more... )

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"I'm so happy right now," she insists.

words held fast in bulging cheeks, having long since lost their weight. spewed forth and lapped up again. reserved for persuasion, spite, assurance. cooly freed from parted lips. phrases bound in gloss. dribble down your chin. mucking up your makeup. looking all kinds of silly.

i expect much more from

today's word is "respite".

i'd say that i'm in the wake-up-at-7-am-feeling-like-i've-been-punched-in-the-chest-whilst-britney-spears-lyrics-not-only-make-themselves-apparent-but-seem-much-more-weighty-than-they-ever-have-before phase.

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do they have real violence on youtube? i know they have whale violence. anyway, prior to beginning this entry, i searched for a video that could accurately convey the way i feel right now. keywords including: stab, own, stomach, repeatedly, smash, forehead, into, desk, etc ( Read more... )

"once you know death, you never not know death."

overwhelming sense of severity. inexplicable pain in my abdomen, although i'm afraid to verbalize any tentative diagnoses. now that i am listening to it, it is listening to me. and it's been made fairly clear that the further i prolong my resistance, the faster i'll be removed. it wants me to ( Read more... )

in a matter of weeks, virtually everything i've known has changed completely.

don't take that like it sounds.