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The End of the Beginning XXV

Nov 24, 2009 10:14

Title: The End Of The Beginning
Part: XXV
Title: And we drown
Pairing: Xander/Spike (eventually)
Overall Rating: NC17
Chapter Rating: R
Beta: shakatany the fabulous
Disclaimer: No money, not mine.
AN: Again, I can’t stress enough, please realise that this chapter, like the last few is dark. If you’re wanting puppies and rainbows, please go back ( Read more... )

x/s, spike/xander, spander, the end of the beginning, xander/spike, s/x

Comments 12

tonisimone November 27 2009, 12:54:57 UTC

Plz tell me your gonna make it better? It dosn't have to be soon cause you make it hurt so goooood. but I wan't assurance that it has a happy ending. cause while pain is good It's just depressing if there's no happy to look forward to.

any ways plz update soon

Toni

off_suit December 2 2009, 07:12:29 UTC

Hey Toni,

Don't panic, it will eventually have a happy ending... I hope. I may have to beat the muse a bit bloody, but I do want to see the boys at least vaguely happy.

... that doesn't sound entirely comforting does it?

I promise I'll try to give them rainbows and puppies eventually.

tonisimone December 2 2009, 07:15:10 UTC

Thank you thankyou thankyouthankyou!!!!!!!

Ande your right it wasn't exactly comforting.

again... thank you

toni

entropy1031 December 5 2009, 06:30:19 UTC

Wow. Powerful stuff. I like the way that the narration remains vague- kind of echoing Xander's increasingly detached awareness of the world. It is frustrating, though, as a reader. I keep hoping that Spike will come in and clarify some of Xander's ramblings. I like the way you've linked Xander's love for Dawn to his repression of his own memories and his gradual loss of self. I don't know whether it's psychologically valid or not, but I notice the same thing has happened to me; try too hard to repress some things and it becomes all to easy to just forget everything. I really look forward to the next chapter!

off_suit December 5 2009, 10:23:43 UTC

I haven't taken enough psychology to know if this is an appropriate response to the situation. I pretty much took how I thought I'd react, and altered it slightly to fit in with Xander's personality and mannerisms. I knew he'd never give up, it's just the way he's chosen to fight is more than a little self-destructive. Which to me, is a very Xander way of doing it.

The narration is one of the hardest parts to do, since I need to to feel slightly disassociated while providing enough information that the readers still understand what's going on. Hopefully it isn't too frustrating.

Thanks so much for the lovely comment.