something random..........
ok, this originally started out as a note to.......nobody. so i'm not gonna change it i'm just gonna post exactly what it says.
I'm in the car on the way to Myrtle Beach. YAY! This trip is gonna be awesome blossom. LoL. Dude, i'm gonna get myself into trouble next week. Monday's going to be interesting in itself - Diego + My Family = hmm.....? LoL. the whole concept is just WIERD, thefact that it's actually happening makes me a tad nervous. Then put the possibility of wednesday on top of that. i'm actually not nervous about the whole "pop" thing, i just....really wanna get it over with. amazingly enough, i'm excited. i never thought i'd want to do it so bad, at least not now... but ever since the idea was actually set into mothin, now i feel like i have to do it b/c he thinks i'm gonna back out. but, damn, i love him so much...you have no idea. i mean, i planned on waiting @ least til i was out of high school but i planned a LOT of stuff that i'm not gonna do ... or i AM gonna do. LoL. i just wonder what people will say when they find out. (you know it's gonna come out eventually, always does) i'm the good girl - too straight edge for diego, no the chick that's gonna sleep with him 2 months into the relationship. normally i wouldn't, but i love him, n i know he loves me, and he's promised me forever. i just hope he keeps his promises as well as i do. i believe him, and i trust him, but foever is a long fuckin' time. i've never thought about forever until this summer...so the concept keeps me pondering. you could tell me i'll have curly hair forever and i wouldn't be able to comprehend the magnitude of it, so how am i supposed to comprehend being in love with one guy forever? don't get me wrong, i want to be with him forever, i just can't fully imagine forever. is it even possible to imagine your life into forever? what 16 year old can see themselves at 61? all i know is i want to fuck him, like....now. LoL. i miss being ALONE with him. I LOVE HIM.
~Jacki
k, i'm gonna do a seperate entry about other shit. lol. peace. (fun word........)
I'm in the car on the way to Myrtle Beach. YAY! This trip is gonna be awesome blossom. LoL. Dude, i'm gonna get myself into trouble next week. Monday's going to be interesting in itself - Diego + My Family = hmm.....? LoL. the whole concept is just WIERD, thefact that it's actually happening makes me a tad nervous. Then put the possibility of wednesday on top of that. i'm actually not nervous about the whole "pop" thing, i just....really wanna get it over with. amazingly enough, i'm excited. i never thought i'd want to do it so bad, at least not now... but ever since the idea was actually set into mothin, now i feel like i have to do it b/c he thinks i'm gonna back out. but, damn, i love him so much...you have no idea. i mean, i planned on waiting @ least til i was out of high school but i planned a LOT of stuff that i'm not gonna do ... or i AM gonna do. LoL. i just wonder what people will say when they find out. (you know it's gonna come out eventually, always does) i'm the good girl - too straight edge for diego, no the chick that's gonna sleep with him 2 months into the relationship. normally i wouldn't, but i love him, n i know he loves me, and he's promised me forever. i just hope he keeps his promises as well as i do. i believe him, and i trust him, but foever is a long fuckin' time. i've never thought about forever until this summer...so the concept keeps me pondering. you could tell me i'll have curly hair forever and i wouldn't be able to comprehend the magnitude of it, so how am i supposed to comprehend being in love with one guy forever? don't get me wrong, i want to be with him forever, i just can't fully imagine forever. is it even possible to imagine your life into forever? what 16 year old can see themselves at 61? all i know is i want to fuck him, like....now. LoL. i miss being ALONE with him. I LOVE HIM.
~Jacki
k, i'm gonna do a seperate entry about other shit. lol. peace. (fun word........)