Oh. Man.

[ofsevenburdens]

It's time for me to be brutally honest with nobody. The only people that factor into my life on a daily basis are all very well-informed.

Why is it that it's only when things are terrible that I open up the channels of communication to people who I used to know?

Check it.

For years I have not been respected or safe in my own house and home. My

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[gazzafizza06]

Davey, I'm not going to pretend to know or understand all the intricacies of your life right now, because that would be unfairly presumptuous of me. I do know that I also grew up in an unhealthy family where I was forced to always be the "sane" one or the "responsible" one, compared to my special needs older brother who was often verbally, and sometimes rather phsyically, abusive with me and my mom. My parents tried to hold things together for as long as they could, but after my senior year they realized they couldn't any more and they split. Now my dad's in VT, my mom's remarried in a disgustingly happy way, and my brother and I are each off at school. My home has split into four pieces, and I don't know whether we'll ever heal

[sincethesunrise]

Man, I'm sorry to hear that things are not progressing much since I've last talked to you. But I definitely understand the hotel thing and you just have to do what you have to do. I know that one day when you start a family of your own you will never put them through what you are going through. You're an amazing individual that do pretty much anything you put your mind too. And I'm sure once your gone there won't be any turning back and I think that exactly what you need and deserve. I just hope nothing to major happens between now and then to interfere with that.

You've definitely got a strong heart.

[_jekil_]

hey there.

I just wanted to say that I'm sorry that all of this is happening to you. Even though we haven't talked very much in the pat couple of years, I still consider you a great friend, and for that reason I know you don't deserve this. I can't try to understand what is happening with you, but I do know what it is like to be put in a situation like you are in now. It's good to just step away for a minute to clear your head; in the hustle and bustle of everything happening around you, there is never any time to think about your own needs. And, like you said, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You may just have to walk extra long through complete darkness to find it, but that doesn't mean that you're not going to meet people who care about you on the way.

You'll get through this, David. You are an amazing person and I don't want you to forget that.

If you ever need to talk, even though it's been a while, contact me.

I hope things work out for you soon.

<3 - Pink Ranger

[anonymous]

Not feeling at home in your own home is probably one of the worst feelings you can ever have. home is supposed to be the safe-haven from the outside...from the complicated matters that come up everyday. Home is supposed to be the place that you go to to be able to relax and focus and generally re-cooperate. Not having a real home can fuck with your mind and make anyone, no matter how strong, go crazy. When you realize your family is not really being a family anymore, and that all you really have is yourself, you get frightened and overwhelmed. Ive been in a situation not too far from yours, and fuck, i still am. Home is never a safe place mentally and physically...but it gets easier...although it never will completely go away. It never gets "easier in the end" unfortunately, but it can make you a stronger person, a person who may understand just a smidget more about the fact that life is crazy and takes turns for the worse...but it never stays in one place if you don't want it to. You've even already done that...with the hotel