i hate days like this. it's humid, grey, drizzling but not actually storming (which i prefer, unless it's tornadoes), and no one's really moving around. it feels dead, silent, alone, and lethargic
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I understand. I don't do much myself. I guess I am going to try to be more outgoing. It is hard for me but I stay after the meetings and talk to people a little bit. I am hoping it will get easier with time. I have started calling people too. Not all the time. But just a short call to say, hey whatcha up to? And sometimes they will call me back and I will get to hang out with them. Can you take up any classes? Either online or outside of your home?
i'm not really suited to the school-mentality. to me, it's a warzone that at my age is avoidable. i can't get out as much as i'd like to; no transportation, per se, and no one to be around when i'm actually up to being around people. i do have my cat though. she's been taking naps with me again lately, maybe because i seem depressed, maybe because of the asthma attack caused by going to a house that has DOGS in it (to which i'm more allergic than even i realized until then). she's a really good kittymon.
1 Peter 1:3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead.
Of course you are included in things that involve the living. It's life that's more important that what people think when you say "I need a life" or "I have no life". This is true life and more fulfilling than anything in the world. It' awesome.
trust me, it's quite different for someone, to use a phrase i hate, 'like me'. i have severe ptsd, i've been through more in the first 1 1/2 decades of my life than what's normal, and my emotions shut down, at least mostly, leaving me feeling shellshocked and boneweary. i eat, sleep, stuff like that, which living people do, but for lack of a better term, i feel like a ghost, or a shell. pep talks don't work on me, even though i end up giving them.
Trust me, I am not giving you a pep talk. I'm telling you the truth. Jesus is life. If you have him, you have life. Maybe not the kind of life you want, with people and fun. But it is better than that life, because it is everlasting, and it is NOW. Live the Kingdom now. And concerning the abuse you've suffered, and the ptsd as a result of that....pray and believe. Jesus can heal you. His Father gave him that ability. Pray through Jesus and have faith that y ou will be well. I know it seems hard, but it can be done. Rebuke the sickness and don't take no for an answer. Right now, the ptsd and your past own you. Are you slaving for the sickness, or are you slaving for God? You can own the sickness. God is better than doctors. He can actually heal you. Believe and be healed.
i've alwaysa liked winter; i've only totally hated it when cut off from stores/supplies/foodstuffs/etc, and because of recent seizure-like activity (which summer stuff causes just as much)...and it really sucks to be totally snowed in and have the chickens fed better than you are, trust me on this.
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Can you take up any classes? Either online or outside of your home?
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i can't get out as much as i'd like to; no transportation, per se, and no one to be around when i'm actually up to being around people. i do have my cat though. she's been taking naps with me again lately, maybe because i seem depressed, maybe because of the asthma attack caused by going to a house that has DOGS in it (to which i'm more allergic than even i realized until then). she's a really good kittymon.
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Of course you are included in things that involve the living. It's life that's more important that what people think when you say "I need a life" or "I have no life". This is true life and more fulfilling than anything in the world. It' awesome.
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