Something has to be wrong when you feel so bad, so lost, so sad, so hurt, so (everything) that all you can do to react is vomit. I'll vomit out my sadness. Yeah, that's it. (Seems I don't have a choice, anyway)
I am afraid of... seeing Brandon. regaining stress. being forgotten. all fun taming down. losing you. spring passing too quickly. falling into unhappiness.