Somewhat immediate reaction to Day Four
NOOOOOOOO. IAAANNNNTOOOOOO!!1!
Srsly, fucking NO.
Very distraught right now... which is a bit distracting when I'm at work. *sobs quietly*
Utterly fucking devastated, actually.
Not even sure whether I'll be able to bear to watch it again tonight on UKTV... I was late for work this morning (not that they care, or anything) because I was crying! *is possibly unhealthily invested in fictional characters*
I hope I'll be interested enough to watch any future series, though if this is permanent, I'm not sure I'll be able to work up the enthusiasm I had about this series. Man, I loved this show hard. I'm almost mourning that as much as I am Ianto. Or at least I will be, if it's not reversed tomorrow.
Awesome episode, though, and I was just agape at the whole political processes and the way they were just so willing to sell out the lowest achieving 10% of children. Frobisher was brilliant in that scene, just looking more and more appalled, but going along with it. His wife was really good, and made me feel terrible for her and the family, because he's such a goner. Lois was spectacular, and adorable. And I loved that Johnson finally seems to have a limit to what she's willing to go along with. I hope she's instrumental in saving the day in the next episode.
Ianto (and Gareth's acting) was magnificent, and I guess there's a little bit of consolation to be had in that. A LITTLE. :-/
And, random theory, there's something weird about the way the 456 talk, with the weird repeating things bits, and the recorded voices and stuff, and I think that's going to have something to do with how they get defeated. And, um, turn back the clock so that IANTO ISN'T DEAD ANYMOAR, KTHX WRITERS, DO YOU HEAR ME?!?
I just... don't have any more thoughts about it. I just need to know how it ends now. And how they can reverse it. He so can't be dead. He just can't. Jack needs him. What will Jack's character be like if they have a future series without Ianto? It'll just sting way too badly if he's all flirty and single again, after everything, and it'll feel like a regression. And it'll get old fast if he's all tortured and S1 Jack again (as much as I liked him in S1, it wasn't very popular, and it is a better start to a series than a point to develop to). Bah. When they said they were rebooting the show, I really hoped this wouldn't be a part of it.
Still trying to remain hopeful... but kind of failing. It was Gwen straightening his tie that just broke me, though. GAAAAAHHH. Also, not really one for the 'it's always bad when you kill a gay character' brigade, and I probably don't have the critical distance to have a proper perspective in this case, but this almost felt like a textbook example of why that can be true. OH JACK. Barrowman's performance in this utterly broke my heart, too. Despite what people think, I do think he's quite good at subtlety, especially opposite Gareth... OMG, THERE MIGHT NOT BE ANYMORE OF THAT, EVER. D-:
And a cynical part of me thinks that they're probably hoping they can leave all the gay in the spinoff media and still keep the fangirls, while making the show more mainstream-friendly. I really hope that isn't true, and I don't believe it, but the thought keeps popping into my head.
And really, really hoping that that spoiler isn't true, and that Ianto will come back in the next episode, and particularly that Torchwood won't just be disbanded or whatever, because Jack needs Torchwood so much, needs Gwen, needs Ianto (I KNOW! SOB!), and he can't just leave (to go off with the Doctor??). That ending will completely break me, I'm sure, and it'll be really hard to come back from that, as far as I can see.
OMG, I can't believe how fucking traumatised I am over a fictional character. And at least half of that is me being sad for Jack, because I know his trauma is just not over. Why do the writers like torturing him so much? Can't he have an "everybody lives" moment, just once?! Please!?
God, tomorrow is going to be brutal. I just know it.
There. Never let it be said I'm not willing to humiliate myself in public.
Man, no one's going to want to come to my Torchwood party now... *SUBTLE HINT, PLZ COME* :)