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I'm sorry I've been neglecting my journal. I've had other things to do...and then other stuff came up..........
But it's okay now. And I'm happy...things are at peace again. And school is out as well. Time for a relaxing summer.
I was so scared....I thought he was gone...I can't believe I did that.........
It was so lonely without Russell....I didn't want to do anything...it hurt so much without him there......and all I wanted to say for so long was that I was sorry and that I still loved him, even after blowing up like that....
I was so happy just being able to speak to him again, and knowing that he still loved me, too...and then he came over to give me back the ring...I asked him to stay awhile and he stayed for so long afterwards. It felt so wonderful to be in his arms again, and to hold him...be close to him...to touch his lips, and run my hand through his hair......
It hadn't even been very long and yet it seemed like an eternity...and I missed all of that, every little bit of it and much more...
I'm glad he's not gone....I'm so glad.....
And it's a little early to be thinking about it, but Boneuga is coming up....August 1st. Father always made the best dinners on Boneuga...but this year is my turn to make one. It's just a shame that he won't be around for it...
And the house will look so pretty in the twilight - we light all the candles around inside the house....it's so very pretty.
(( :O OMG...I'm such an idiot...I can't believe that I almost walked away from this!!!))
But it's okay now. And I'm happy...things are at peace again. And school is out as well. Time for a relaxing summer.
I was so scared....I thought he was gone...I can't believe I did that.........
It was so lonely without Russell....I didn't want to do anything...it hurt so much without him there......and all I wanted to say for so long was that I was sorry and that I still loved him, even after blowing up like that....
I was so happy just being able to speak to him again, and knowing that he still loved me, too...and then he came over to give me back the ring...I asked him to stay awhile and he stayed for so long afterwards. It felt so wonderful to be in his arms again, and to hold him...be close to him...to touch his lips, and run my hand through his hair......
It hadn't even been very long and yet it seemed like an eternity...and I missed all of that, every little bit of it and much more...
I'm glad he's not gone....I'm so glad.....
And it's a little early to be thinking about it, but Boneuga is coming up....August 1st. Father always made the best dinners on Boneuga...but this year is my turn to make one. It's just a shame that he won't be around for it...
And the house will look so pretty in the twilight - we light all the candles around inside the house....it's so very pretty.
(( :O OMG...I'm such an idiot...I can't believe that I almost walked away from this!!!))