i just did 2 months in the Ottawa general hospital. the first 2 weeks were exactly as you described : optimistic, rosy and i wanted to be everybody's friend. By week #4 i had a sign on my door telling everyone to leave me the fuck alone. i'd like to say i held myself with poise during the duration of my stay, but truth betold i was a little shit. the best part is, as my psychologist explained to me, that NOBODY can hold it against me. it's human nature to feel withdrawn, defensive and distant when you essentially have NO privacy whatsoever. oh hey, this turned into a rant. anyways, i'm back at home now, good luck with the rest of your week.
Oddly enough, I don't mind the hospital staff, it's everyone else in my life that I feel withdrawn from. When friends and family come to visit, I just want to tell them to leave. Probably because it never crosses their minds to excuse themselves when a doctor comes in asking me really personal questions that they have no right to know the answer to. Some even get OFFENDED if I ask them to leave. Paul told me once when I said I didn't want to answer questions in front of him that I was being a bitch because he's "special". Yes, he's special to me, that doesn't mean he needs to be privy to how many bowel movements I have in a day.
Sorry, mine also turned into a rant...I'm just in a bad mood because I found out this morning that grew staff infections in my sputum cultures, which means I might have to stay the full two weeks. Yay.
*I would like to add for the record that I feel like I am preaching to the choir, as it were, complaining to you about a two week hospital stay, which is only a fourth of the stay that you just had.
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Oddly enough, I don't mind the hospital staff, it's everyone else in my life that I feel withdrawn from. When friends and family come to visit, I just want to tell them to leave. Probably because it never crosses their minds to excuse themselves when a doctor comes in asking me really personal questions that they have no right to know the answer to. Some even get OFFENDED if I ask them to leave. Paul told me once when I said I didn't want to answer questions in front of him that I was being a bitch because he's "special". Yes, he's special to me, that doesn't mean he needs to be privy to how many bowel movements I have in a day.
Sorry, mine also turned into a rant...I'm just in a bad mood because I found out this morning that grew staff infections in my sputum cultures, which means I might have to stay the full two weeks. Yay.
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