all i can think about anymore is being thinner. and how much i want to be noticed.
it's really disgusting and depressing.

"i hope all of februarys like this"  [see this entry]

It's sad to see that this month had to amount to something so grand of a tragedy. Mykel's death has affected (positively and negatively) more people's lives than I could have ever imagined. In a way his death has been a blessing. He has opened atleast my eyes, I can't speak for anybody else, and ( Read more... )

it just seems pretty surreal
it's weird how people seem so invincible, but it only takes a second for a life to end

( rest in peace )

WENDY MADE IT AND AUSTIN WAS ELIMINATED AND NOW I WANT TO KILL SOMEBODY!

so i think i've decided that i want to fall in love with someone...and have them love me back.

and i think i want a valentine too (those are high hopes)

and soon i want to get a group of people together so we can all go to disneyland...and ride Splash Mountain.

( NEW THINGS )

goodie two sleeves photo shoot #2=wayyyy better than yesterday and SO much fun ( Read more... )

so jessica and i did the goodie two sleeves photo shoot today. it was kinda weird. i felt really out of place because me and jessica didnt know anybody, and we kinda felt really awkward. i was also maybe the fattest ugliest one there, and ya know, thats pretty cool. also "penis" was there...i felt sooooooooooooo dumb. whatever. i would do it again ( Read more... )

all these grls have their boys ( Read more... )

so I was reading Vogue last night and in it one of the various authors said something about closing doors, and how she felt she had made the right decisions and closed all the right doors, and ive been thinking about what kind of doors ive closed and what kind of opportunities i've missed out on because of the choices that i have previously made in ( Read more... )