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[oh_sylvia]

I'm afraid I've fallen out of love with L. Or maybe this a case of the "iffs". I had been feeling this way for a couple of weeks, unwilling to admit it to myself. After the kiss with R, I thought I had gotten over my doubts, my fears, my general apathy towards our relationship

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[starcharmer]

I know how you feel. I used to get that way with everything, and I'm kind of doig it now. But not so much

[oh_sylvia]

It's ironic, because when picturing my future a few years ago, I pictured myself married by now.

Now, settling down is great fear of mine. I get like this whenever I become content with the mundane.

But you guys are both young & I think it's good that you aren't settling. Move to spokane. I think it's pretty :)

As for speaking to L...well I don't know where or how to start. He's not the kind of guy I can just drop that sort of bomb on without some sort of freak out. If I talk to him before I've figured it out myself, he is gonna freak out and worry. Sometimes I wish I could just talk to him about these things in a rational manner.

Or maybe I'm not giving him enough credit? Hmmm

But you're right, I do need to speak to him soon.

Ps: Thanks :)

[nikpn]

You can't always help the way you feel.
Follow your heart & do what your brain thinks you should.

[oh_sylvia]

Those two haven't been speaking since puberty ;).

My heart wants to run away to someplace tropical and paint the rest of my life, taking in a few lovers on the side.

My brain says to finish school and suck it up and settle down.

Haha.

[nikpn]

Yea. It sucks.

[kellymabob]

I love your entries. They seem so honest and genuine.

Before you even said you felt like Edna from The Awakening I was thinking of her from what you had written in the entry. How strange...

[oh_sylvia]

We are on the same literary wavelength it seems. And can I just say I love you for thinking of that too?

Thanks for the comment, it made me smile :)