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anonymous
September 5 2005, 03:57:45 UTC
i cry wayyy too much. i need someone to talk to. i wish i had a boyfriend. i want someone to love me. i NEED someone to love me. i really love to cuddle. my state has been horribly devastated by a huge hurricane. most of new orleans is homeless and/or dead. im really sad. i need to write again, but i haven't been able to since late june. im depressed, again. you probably won't know who i am, but that's okay. i really need to get some stuff out. i used to cut and recently the thought has been taunting me. i want to do it again so bad but i know i can't. i've been over it for 2 months and still going strong, but i don't know how much longer it will last. i wish i could seriously get over it for good. i think i am for the most part, but i'm not positive. i need to go back to my social worker. she helps a lot with things. i don't know what i want. i don't know what's best for me. i want to be in love. i don't know what's wrong with me and i wish i did.
Re: this is going to be totally uncensored.oh_thecatsmeowSeptember 5 2005, 14:39:13 UTC
Wow, Reading that.. it's just wow. I hope everything get's so much better for you. You certainly deserve it. And please stay strong, I know what it's like to want to cut again.. I just try telling myself it won't do any good. ♥
Tru Dat, all cutting does is cause more pain, then you want to cut again due to that pain, then you wonder why all this pain is happening, then you go and do it again, It does no good,
Instead of cutting, why not beat yourself in the face with an aluminum bat, or playing the "lets stick a butter knife in the electrical socket" game, I'm sorry, But really, just cry it all out or read a book or find something else instead.
it is directed at you. Im just not to good at the relationship thing, Its never worked out for me. but...I don't know. Maybe. I'll have to think about it.
Confession: I want people to except me. and I want the pain to stop. I want to stop cutting and I want someone to love me. I want to be happy again and regain everything I have lost.
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i think i should stop before i get worse.
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Reading that.. it's just wow.
I hope everything get's so much better for you.
You certainly deserve it.
And please stay strong,
I know what it's like to want to cut again..
I just try telling myself it won't do any good.
♥
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Instead of cutting, why not beat yourself in the face with an aluminum bat, or playing the "lets stick a butter knife in the electrical socket" game, I'm sorry, But really, just cry it all out or read a book or find something else instead.
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if that's directed at me,
do it. lol.
If not,
then whoever that person is,
just tell them how you feel.
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I'd love to know your identity.
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COnfession: i still like stephen...*sigh* it just has to be so complicated....
Secret: i need to pee...hehe
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secret- i lie alot. i can be a good liar when i want except i always feel like i did somethnig bad after i tell a lie and it makes me feel guilty.
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Although I suppose lying isn't like.. the best thing ever, just don't feel guilty. Maybe you can't help it.
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