andruh hasn't called me yet ( Read more... )

i wish it wasnt so complicated

i wish it wasnt so wonderful

and is it wrong to wish that if you cant have it
that you never had it to begin with?

wouldnt that be less painful?

even if it wasnt for long

cant something still be simply

beautiful?

So school today was weird. I got to see like the three friends at Ellet I have. haha Well at least my three real friends. Everyone creamed over my piano belt. That made me happy ( Read more... )

so new years was like it always is. but at least this year i got to spend it with someone im not related too. andruh stayed the night since i couldnt go anywhere. here are the pictures... i look so retarded...


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aaaaarrrrrgggghhhhh!

boys can all die and just suck my dick. especially since none of them can come up with a real reason to other than they are "unsure" or "afriad". and my favorite thing of all time is when they beat around the bush about it then claim they tried their best.

AAARRRRGGHH!!!!

as stated in the title of this entry, "what goes up, must come down". and not only is the the law of gravity, but the law of life as well. I know this is a shocking turn around if compared to all my other 'happier' blogs. Its just... I dont know. with my aunt lindas cancer deal, its kind of bringing me down. and a lot of people [including myself] ( Read more... )

So how do I really feel?


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its Christmas! not too much excitment. I got a lot of neat stuff [nothing particular] movies, clothes, some candy, an mp3 player, and all that good stuff. so it all works out. I get to see a lot of family and that pays off too because I have a lot of neat family. Well merry christmas to everyone and I'll update you later tonight after the whole day ( Read more... )

I think the truth is, I really will have a blue christmas without you...

so yeah. I dont really know what to say update wise.

I have a phone bill that I owe $115 for. I have payed off $15 of it. And tonight I'm babysitting so hopefully I get some more docked off of that

I miss everything being simple. But I guess the older you get the more complicatedeverything else gets too. So I wont let life get to me. I'll live ( Read more... )