LJ Idol Week One - When I'm no longer young and beautiful.

[ohelectricshock]

"I think it would be hot to watch you fuck another guy

Comments

[raven_annabelle]

<3!

[cacophonesque]

This was really well-written, Alex. I remember following along while all of this stuff was happening in real time in your life--but revisiting it does reveal so many new insights.

As a heads up, the post is still on f-lock, which means most Idol people won't actually be able to read it.

[ohelectricshock]

Thanks so much :) I was debating fictionalizing some of it in my musings about returning to Idol but I think being as brutally honest as possible is going to be the best way for me to get what I want out of this experience. It's so helpful having my physical journal from that time, as well, to help me get back to that mindset.

Thanks for the heads up! I remembered at first to change it to public but then I went back and resized the image so that it fit in with my layout and it changed back to f-only. Changed it back now!

[basric]

How very sad. Though you wrote it well.

[ohelectricshock]

Thank you :) It was sad but I think I have grown so so much since then. No regrets.

[tsuki_no_bara]

this is kind of painful to read, knowing it signaled the beginning of the end of the relationship, but it's really well-written. (also the pics are lovely!)

[ohelectricshock]

Yes, although I thought it was just one of many conversations we might have over the next few years. It's always interesting to go back and look at moments in your life that you didn't realize were significant and then recognize them as significant turning points.

[eska818]

This is the first entry that I've read so far for this week that has really caught my attention. It's beautiful and sad, and my heart goes out to you.

[ohelectricshock]

That means so much to me, thank you. I made a decision to make myself vulnerable this time around and I am looking forward to developing this more :)