LJ Idol Week Two - All That Faith, Trust, and Pixie Dust.

[ohelectricshock]

I'm a mess. I feel like I've been a mess for months. I guess I'm just going through an adjustment phase of realizing that I'm not the only person that my boyfriend wants to get naked with. I understand that, I do, I mean, the rational part of me does. The other part, the part of me whose self worth is wrapped up in his opinion of me, fails to

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[sweeny_todd]

ahhhhh... this is painful :-( That last paragraph... it tears at my heart.

[ohelectricshock]

I had a hard time writing about it, it's never pleasant to revisit a way you were feeling when you were feeling weak, but I think it's helpful for me to remember so that I don't fall back into the same patterns of not standing up for my own feelings.

[jexia]

:(

[ohelectricshock]

Thanks for reading <3

[suesniffsglue]

Honest and raw. Very well-written. Thank you for sharing.

[ohelectricshock]

Thank you so much, I really appreciate it. <3

[mari4212]

This is so painful and so powerful all together.

[ohelectricshock]

Thank you :), it's a hard thing to write about because it's when I felt my most vulnerable, but being in the place I am now and being able to write about it in the past tense and realize I feel so radically different now than I did then is very reassuring.

[cheshire23]

I'm glad to hear it's past tense.

[ohelectricshock]

*hugs right back* <3