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ohelectricshock

LJ Idol Week Three - I want you so much but I hate your guts.

Mar 31, 2014 09:56

It's the end of March, Alex and I are in his van filled with our worldly possessions plus one bunny rabbit and we are driving towards what will be my last season at the Lodge. I am feeling unsettled, disconnected. This is our last day of being monogamous, after today everything will be different. I can't help but feel a certain amount of ( Read more... )

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thespotonjohnny March 31 2014, 18:21:34 UTC

Beautifully written. I ache reading these posts.

elledanger March 31 2014, 20:55:37 UTC

I'm really enjoying the tale you're weaving with these posts - and you have such an easy reading style of writing.

ohelectricshock April 2 2014, 20:33:43 UTC

That is super reassuring to read, I'm glad that my jumbled thoughts are translating well into a narrative.

solstice_singer April 1 2014, 00:30:10 UTC

The whole open relationship thing can be so hard. I tried it once, and it just didn't work out. I know people who wouldn't have it any other way, but I can't count myself among them. Jealousy can be a problem for me too.

ohelectricshock April 2 2014, 20:34:00 UTC

I am right there with you <3

xshibumix April 1 2014, 03:27:10 UTC

Very interesting read! I'm glad to know I wasn't the only one who thought of unfaithfulness when I first read the topic. I don't know if this is truth of a fictional story but I really felt your emotion and could really relate as id have felt the same way. Great job! You'll be getting a vote from me :)

ohelectricshock April 2 2014, 20:35:04 UTC

Thanks so much! I really appreciate this. It's a true story, I've just embellished the emotions a little.

tjoel2 April 1 2014, 03:29:48 UTC

Great topic! And also wonderful photos. I actually had a bunny like that named Jack. And while my partner and I have not contemplated an open relationship in the sexual sense, we have exploded different forms of relationships.

ohelectricshock April 2 2014, 20:38:04 UTC

Aww bunnies! Yeah he's my baby, his name is Jonas and/or Major Lazer and/or Bunners depending on how I feel hahaha. I think it's a positive thing to keep an open mind about relationships. It feels valuable to reexamine the kind you have if your needs aren't being met, although I feel like in order for it to work long-term it needs to come from both parties, and both parties need to be in a place of emotional security in order for it to work.