screw you
i wish i could be taken seriously sometimes
when i say things and do things it means something
not even my parents take me seriously
im still a child in everyones eyes
my mom thinks im stupid and have lost all common sense
she says that shes "worried about me" because i forget stuff sometimes
my dad doesnt know anything about me but judges me and assumes everything
he puts words in my mouth and other peoples mouthes so that they can better suit his life and his ideas
i hate how financial issues come before my happiness and im being repremanded for knowing and going for what i want and what i think will make me happy
i realized my school sees me as no more than another tuition and another person with a high GPA that will make their school look better
to most of my friends im just someone they can poke fun at
i know they are joking but its tiring when its the weight of the conversation
of every conversation every day
im sick of doing things for people and them not being grateful or realizing it
im sick of saying things and people not paying attention i always feel like im muted out
there are so many things wrong other than school and i just wish i could sleep and wake up without all of this weight
i feel like none of this is my fault i just care too much to look out for myself and keep walking and not getting myself out or something
i dont care if this doesnt make sense to other people because this is my journal and i doubt anyone will read it to here anyways
i hate words and clothes and money and food and materials
and i hate stereotypes and insecurities and people trying to be what they are not or trying to impress their friends by putting you down
i hate having no idea what to do to make anything better
and i listen to other peoples advice but none of the options work and i just dont understand and i try but nothing seems to happen or work or have any affect
when i say things and do things it means something
not even my parents take me seriously
im still a child in everyones eyes
my mom thinks im stupid and have lost all common sense
she says that shes "worried about me" because i forget stuff sometimes
my dad doesnt know anything about me but judges me and assumes everything
he puts words in my mouth and other peoples mouthes so that they can better suit his life and his ideas
i hate how financial issues come before my happiness and im being repremanded for knowing and going for what i want and what i think will make me happy
i realized my school sees me as no more than another tuition and another person with a high GPA that will make their school look better
to most of my friends im just someone they can poke fun at
i know they are joking but its tiring when its the weight of the conversation
of every conversation every day
im sick of doing things for people and them not being grateful or realizing it
im sick of saying things and people not paying attention i always feel like im muted out
there are so many things wrong other than school and i just wish i could sleep and wake up without all of this weight
i feel like none of this is my fault i just care too much to look out for myself and keep walking and not getting myself out or something
i dont care if this doesnt make sense to other people because this is my journal and i doubt anyone will read it to here anyways
i hate words and clothes and money and food and materials
and i hate stereotypes and insecurities and people trying to be what they are not or trying to impress their friends by putting you down
i hate having no idea what to do to make anything better
and i listen to other peoples advice but none of the options work and i just dont understand and i try but nothing seems to happen or work or have any affect