i read it. you're unbeatable. nothing comes close. nothing is better than laying in the tennis courts and just talking. and laying. and knowing you'll always be here for me and i'll be here for you.
there's so much i wish i could tell you man. it's so hard for me to see you going through the same exact shit i went through and not being able to just flat out tell you everything i've learned and everything i believe in. but unfortunatly its nothing that can be taught and it's so frusterating.
but you're getting there dood. just stick to being open about your feelings to others but mainly yourself. and keep writing as much as you can. it helps so much, and i miss it. i haven't had anything good to write about for months now, it sucks. haha.
that makes me feel like shit first of all. just because i was shy with you doesnt mean your not good enough and nothing was your fault. you know how much i was into you john, and you were happy being with carly and having a better time with her than you did with me. dont get jealous. your happy with her. and seemed like you were obviously over me, and you told me you were. just dont think your not good enough, cause you are for her.
john. this made me feel so many different feelings. happiness, frustration, extreme sadness, longing, guilty, shameful, deprived, low.. so many things
i need to talk to you and you know that. you know. and i dont know where to even begin. please..do whatever you can to talk to me because i cant reach you.
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i read it.
you're unbeatable. nothing comes close.
nothing is better than laying in the tennis courts and just talking. and laying. and knowing you'll always be here for me and i'll be here for you.
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but you're getting there dood. just stick to being open about your feelings to others but mainly yourself. and keep writing as much as you can. it helps so much, and i miss it. i haven't had anything good to write about for months now, it sucks. haha.
::mad love from the oreo.
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i need to talk to you and you know that. you know. and i dont know where to even begin. please..do whatever you can to talk to me because i cant reach you.
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