i just wish for once someone would call me instead of me having to call them

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Do i have a reason to thrive anymore? or is it all based on these false dreams my brain implants that will never come true? I found a motivation to thrive but the dream that would come from that would NEVER happen. Its really quite odd how my brain works. or, more in general, how the human brain works. We are never satisfied with where we are, and ( Read more... )

Wow last night was wierd. I was extremely nervous for some reason(maura you cant get mad cause you know why) and it was causeing my chest to hurt and making me short of breath. Well i was more the definition of nervous than extremely, thats how nervous i was. And it isnt too big a deal either. Or shouldnt be. Arg, well today my nerves are shot and ( Read more... )

( Awsome picture i took of me today that is my new icon, the world actually DOES revolve around me )

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Well umm, today was filled with paranoia. yellow card - brand new was in my head the line "another sunny day in californ i a.." all day cause it was sunny out. umm yea.........im very confused right now. Uhh tech hours were fun as usual. yea, thats pretty much all i can say.....

qotd: who still reads this?

( Song of how ive been feeling lately )

Advanced Big 30 Personality Test Results
Sociability |||||||||||||||||| 54% Aggressiveness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 50% Activity Level |||||||||||| 34% Excitement-Seeking |||||||||||||||||| 58% Enthusiasm ||||||||||||||| 46% Extroversion |||||||||||||||||| 51% Trust |||||||||||| 38% Morality ||| ( Read more... )

Wel lets see today was an awsome day. Woke up at 8, first time ive actually slept in on a weekend during the school year. Then sat around for a bit. I called coco to see if she was goin ot hte beach and yes she was, with chrissi and alli too. So then i wait around till 2 ish and as im about ot leave i get a giant bloody nose. After that i need to ( Read more... )