Back in 2004 on my Blatherings, I posted about Scrooge Moments. I revisit the post every so often, especially around the winter holiday season, in case it helps others:
My mother died last February, so this is my first Christmas without her. I was taken by surprise by just how much I didn't want to participate in Christmas this year. It was almost as if I was 2 years old, kicking my heels and screaming "I don't wanna, I Don't Wanna, I DON'T WANNA!!!" And this wasn't particularly linked to crowds and shopping malls and such. Even in the very private setting of shopping online from home I still felt a tremendous resistance to participating.
I thought I had gotten pretty much through the grieving process over the past 10 months, but there's something about The Holidays that can really bring it out. The Hospice that helped make her final days reasonably comfortable offers Grief Counseling for 13 months after the death. I decided I needed to go in for a few sessions.
There wasn't a whole lot to learn, just that I was going through some very typical things for a person still grieving. But it hopefully will help me eventually put this behind me.
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I thought I had gotten pretty much through the grieving process over the past 10 months, but there's something about The Holidays that can really bring it out. The Hospice that helped make her final days reasonably comfortable offers Grief Counseling for 13 months after the death. I decided I needed to go in for a few sessions.
There wasn't a whole lot to learn, just that I was going through some very typical things for a person still grieving. But it hopefully will help me eventually put this behind me.
May the memories be mostly of the good time.
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*many hugs*
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But I also think that every person grieves in their own way, and there is no one right way to grieve.
I'll be thinking of you as the first year anniversary comes up next month.
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