SOMEONE HELP MY DOG ATE MY INVISALIGN(1 of the 2 retainers i had). WTF.

that is all. Going to go cry and have half crooked teeth now fuck fuck fuck

She had loved him, but she hated herself more.

( hand falling off now )

( I am big picture )

just some sketches and such.

( hi )

I don't know why I've felt like writing more recently.. Well, I do. But I will definitely not get into it. I've been reminiscing a lot, about things I didn't even know I remembered. In a way I feel like I've lost my imagination- not true, but it's a lot more tame than it used to be. Of course this is only natural, but I was hoping it wouldn't come ( Read more... )

I've probably already expressed how much I detest white skies, but it's really getting to me recently. It has been so long since I have seen an actual color to the sky, during the day anyway. It's blinding, painful.. And really it just makes me feel lonely somehow. Makes everything feel gigantic, spacious.. A blank canvas. Untouched and unnecessary ( Read more... )

I'm enjoying my hatred so much more than I ever enjoyed love. Love is temperamental. Tiring. It makes demands. Love uses you. Changes its mind. But hatred, now. That's something you can use. Sculpt. Wield. It's hard or soft, however you need it. Love humiliates you, but hatred cradles you. It's so soothing. I feel infinitely better now.

I don't really know what's going on with me right now.. Well, I do, I have felt this plenty of times towards other people. The growing tired, bored, irrational. Why the fuck does this always happen. It's like I can't stay with anyone... This was supposed to be it, to be where I ended up. I know why it happens but ... I wish I didn't do it ( Read more... )

The toxic parts of oil paints: Vandyke red, ferrocyanide; iodine scarlet, mercuric iodide; flake white, lead carbonate; cobalt violet, arsenic- all those beautiful compounds and pigments that artists treasure but turn out to be deadly. How your dream to create a masterpiece will drive you nuts and then kill you.