it only takes a phone call
its gotten to the point where i have to just give up on him. im always on the edge of my seat and im always waiting and wondering when things are going to move along. im done.
last night i came home early cuz i was pretty upset and really tired and reeeeeeeeally hungry. so i ate like a freaking pig and went to sleep. i had the weirdest dream. my hair was long, i was hanging out with i think nicole w., maybe steven and someone i usually dont hang out with but cant remember, we were sitting outside this party, but it was like a "geek" party and percylla was there for some reason and the next morning came and i was at someones house and lukas was laying on the couch there and we talked and i drove and then i woke up. it was rather strange. hmm.
today me and rose are supossed to go job hunting. she said there are some vet assistant jobs open around cary and im gonna go into a different wolf camera and some other photo places. hopefully we find one.
my parents go out of town the 17th and dont come back til the 21. im pretty excited to have the house to my self but percylla and steven are going out of town friday and coming back after my parents get back so i dont know who is gonna stay wtih me cuz im scared to be in the house all by myself. hopefully cylla gets a job before friday adn cant go so she can stay here, haha.
my room is almost clean too. its taking me SOOOO long. its been like 3 days, 4 loads of laundry, almost 4 bags of trash, $7 in change, 5000 cigarette boxes, a bag of pot stems, and the list goes on. its disgusting. i found a can of beer from when jeff perry adn some kids came over last summer when my parents were out of town...now thats fucking sick. i cant believe ive managed to live in this filth for this long. crazy.