its like i have totally moved in...

i havent been home in weeks...

its sort of... just slipped my mind.

there is no doubt in my mind that anthony is perfect, but i can smell the problems already. nothing major, but they are the sort of things that can develop into super heavy relationship problems ( Read more... )

ScabPoet: why.. why does it hurt. the pills do NOTHING!
ScabPoet: i need anthony in a pill

i ate a roast beef sandwich from roll-n-roaster, and now it feels like there's a brick in my stomach.

he just.... like... fucking fell out of the sky and landed right in front of me ( Read more... )

gah,

i hate saying goodnight...

this afternoon was great, really was. perfect. sat out on anthony's porch, watching to jews stager on...
smoking a pipe...
smoke a few cigarettes...
watch the clouds...
hold his hand...
playing footsie...

forever laughing at the racial insults we come up with...

i havent seen my father in days, but when i spoke to him on the phone i asked him to bring home some vicodin for my wisdom tooth ( Read more... )

class went wonderfully well! for once im really interested in something. forget the fact that anthony was there with me the whole time, i couldnt stop raising my hand, commenting, correcting. its funny how in an environment like that you can pick out who does drugs regularly/has done drugs regularly and who has never touched the stuff ( Read more... )

im really looking forward to tonight.

chamber starts at 10, but im showing up with "the crew" at 7 to help prep. AND ANTHONY WILL BE THERE! gosh, he makes me wanna do awful, rotten little deeds. like smoke a joint on the wonder wheel at coney island.

( (wonder wheel mayhem!) )

dear boy,

i'm sorry for the way i am. i am scared of what may be, of what terrible things could come. i dont want to take that chance. the way i feel for you is too perfect to ruin again.

i fear that in some way, our past will slosh its way back.

i will always love you

as ever,
suzy

i had an ex boyfriend dream last night. oh sure, we all get them once in a while, but i have been having dreams about my ex for a few years now. i dont think they are ever gonna go away ( Read more... )