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thought I was gonna have to say goodbye to my mom forever yesterday.
9pm I get a call from my Uncle Rick -- "your mom's in the hospital" "ah shit what now" "this is serious kiddo, she's either got a blood clot in her lungs or her brain, she's unconscious and they had to paralyze her because she was spasming...."
9:20pm a call to tell me that she was refusing to be hooked up to the machines and that I should fly ASAP. "just get here as soon as you can, the docs don't think she'll make it this time"
5am so after a slew of phone calls from family and friends, a frantic search for a red-eye flight, a sleepless night full of worries and tears.. my sister and I were in line to check our bags. and my step-dad calls. "your mom is feeling better and leaving the hospital now, she wants you to stay in portland and come next week as planned"
and that is my mom for you. apparently she overdosed on her medication and ended up causing herself seizures and respiratory arrest. as soon as the drugs wore off she went back to "normal" with some permanent damage from the trauma. no short term memory and some sight problems, maybe these will return to normal? maybe not? one of those time sensitive things.
I feel pretty sick. yesterday thinking I was gonna say goodbye, part of me felt relief -- finally the woman full of pains found peace. I'd give everything I've got to keep her around forever, but I know soon I'll have to say goodbye... I'm not sure how to be "ready" for the big day.
9pm I get a call from my Uncle Rick -- "your mom's in the hospital" "ah shit what now" "this is serious kiddo, she's either got a blood clot in her lungs or her brain, she's unconscious and they had to paralyze her because she was spasming...."
9:20pm a call to tell me that she was refusing to be hooked up to the machines and that I should fly ASAP. "just get here as soon as you can, the docs don't think she'll make it this time"
5am so after a slew of phone calls from family and friends, a frantic search for a red-eye flight, a sleepless night full of worries and tears.. my sister and I were in line to check our bags. and my step-dad calls. "your mom is feeling better and leaving the hospital now, she wants you to stay in portland and come next week as planned"
and that is my mom for you. apparently she overdosed on her medication and ended up causing herself seizures and respiratory arrest. as soon as the drugs wore off she went back to "normal" with some permanent damage from the trauma. no short term memory and some sight problems, maybe these will return to normal? maybe not? one of those time sensitive things.
I feel pretty sick. yesterday thinking I was gonna say goodbye, part of me felt relief -- finally the woman full of pains found peace. I'd give everything I've got to keep her around forever, but I know soon I'll have to say goodbye... I'm not sure how to be "ready" for the big day.