Sam wakes up on that dirty mattress after Cold Oak with all of his memories of dying and going to heaven intact in his head (maybe he was reuinted with Jess or finally got to meet Mary and was just starting to enjoy having a mom) and he's resentful towards Dean for bringing him back to life and taking him from the peace he finally had and he's almost desperate to go back.
Unsure about this one, but I've decided what the hell. Sam, Dean, gen; some language, some possibly disturbing imagery. Also can't preview, so apologies if the format's wack.
Falls the Shadow
The thing about Heaven is that it’s supposed to be forever. An everlasting rest, soft of touch and filled with airy kisses from his golden-haired soulmate; peanut butter crackers and hot cocoa from the mother he should have always had. Damp grass and fairy tales and quiet years (decades, seconds) of filling his whole being with eternity and learning the perfect silence of Knowing.
At first, he asks after his father, who burns and should not have to, but the angels just say Soon with the tolling deep of truth, and so they wait, all together
( ... )
He wants to kill Jake (a vestigial need for revenge begging its way through his veins) and he wants to get on his knees and thank him--for her, for sending him home to her--until the stars themselves explode their way out of the sky. But then Jake shoves the key in the lock and Hell pours forth (thick and quick and sly, ready to take him and twist him and hold him forever away) so fast Sam can’t do much else but shoot and kill.
Thou shalt not kill, Sam. Now you’re never going back.
Sam burns so many bullets on the face of the man who ruined everything (except not really--that would be Dean, dear older brother, now wouldn’t it) that Jake Talley is more a John Doe.
From behind him, Dean watches and watches but doesn’t really see--Why can’t you see and why didn’t you before?--only watches what he wreaked and wrought and dares to wonder what he did so wrong.
(Just let me go home.“I was happy there.” What should be screamed, so quiet
( ... )
WOW dark, but I guess that was the prompt. I wonder if that was the case, if Sam was in the clear until the first time Dean dragged him back. What a twisted life to be cursed with. Poor boys. This was really fantastic.
Hee, thanks! I dunno, I always thought there was a little something more going on at the tail end of season two than SPN let on. (And I like dark things, okay?!) Anyway, thanks for reading and commenting!
Makes sense to me. No problem with dark things. Way more interesting than all the kitchy-solved-in-30-minutes stuff. :D I liked reading it, thank YOU for writing it!
Sam wakes up on that dirty mattress after Cold Oak with all of his memories of dying and going to heaven intact in his head (maybe he was reuinted with Jess or finally got to meet Mary and was just starting to enjoy having a mom) and he's resentful towards Dean for bringing him back to life and taking him from the peace he finally had and he's almost desperate to go back.
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Falls the Shadow
The thing about Heaven is that it’s supposed to be forever. An everlasting rest, soft of touch and filled with airy kisses from his golden-haired soulmate; peanut butter crackers and hot cocoa from the mother he should have always had. Damp grass and fairy tales and quiet years (decades, seconds) of filling his whole being with eternity and learning the perfect silence of Knowing.
At first, he asks after his father, who burns and should not have to, but the angels just say Soon with the tolling deep of truth, and so they wait, all together ( ... )
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Thou shalt not kill, Sam. Now you’re never going back.
Sam burns so many bullets on the face of the man who ruined everything (except not really--that would be Dean, dear older brother, now wouldn’t it) that Jake Talley is more a John Doe.
From behind him, Dean watches and watches but doesn’t really see--Why can’t you see and why didn’t you before?--only watches what he wreaked and wrought and dares to wonder what he did so wrong.
(Just let me go home.“I was happy there.” What should be screamed, so quiet ( ... )
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