therapy tomorrow morning.

words dont seem right.

im so scared.

jesus.

mrow.

went to see hot fuzz with diesel and mandy and jenny tonight.

it was good which is surprising..considering how ive lost majority of faith for modern movies.

it was good to see jenny and mandy again. it was certainly a sight for sore eyes as I had not seen them in oh..a month or so????

Diesel and I had some adventure getting to best buy. and hung out a ( Read more... )

what i have noticed in the last few days

the glitter and glimmer of trees on windy days (must be inspiration for the lights of las vegas and the envy of fireworks)

the steps that I can take to help me get to the places I want to go

nature is resilient. thank god we havent been kicked out of  the club yet.

swinging is a daily requirement

the more i take ( Read more... )

i dont know why i do these things ( Read more... )

Yay!! "Theres no rice in your future anymore!!!!!"

no more procrastination though i did have a much needed destressing period thanks to youtube.

i fear i wont graduate. and if that is so, then i have many other fears far more frightening than i can spend time to imagine right now.

i just have to graduate.

CONFOUNDED COMPUTERS AND RELATED TECHNOLOGY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im getting a printer, fax, scanner and my comp and internet. and an isb port fastened to my person. AND i will never use library laptops ever again on documents!

i hate you library laptops. all of you go to hell!!!

im feeling really inclined to just wipe the slate clean. just start off on a clean slate.

what is the difference between starting over and running away? im scared of both. one seems to be "healthy" both are moves to take.

i dont know. i just dont know.

and i cant tell between distraction and support or health. I really cant.

i tried to explain to maia ( Read more... )

found an lj community stemming from the book.

a quote.

i am both happy and sad and still trying to figure out how that could be...

maybe its not right but whatever it is seems to fit.

i feel like i could fuck everything up so easily.
but instead ill go to bed. and try to just remain calm.