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Once more, this City presents itself as one that is not suited to 'our kind'. It has come to my attention over the period of time that we have been here we are actually in a very small percentage of the various types of citizen residing within this City.
We are normal.
Human. Without 'powers' in the supernatural definition of the word. Normal.
Our world, while a cruel one at times, does not present us with moments where we would be required to shoot balls of concentrated flame from our hands, or materialise objects from no-where, or heal wounds without medical assistance.
Healing and healers... This is a concept that has been plaguing my mind of late. Ever since Tamaki brought up my medical knowledge and that by utilizing it I should be able to fix things. That is what doctors try to do - fix people, save them, heal them.
Yet this place presents us with healers. Actual healers. People with powers that far surpass that of practitioners of our world. For whatever reason, be it the up-bringing my family have given me, my impending involvement with the medical world as a whole or the just the concept itself, I have felt a little dejected and disappointed in myself. Angry, even.
What have I been doing since being here? While I'm not out to impress anyone in this City my behaviour and priorities have been shameful for what I am capable of. Perhaps I have been suspending my sense of reality in place of putting my focus into the Club and its members. It's much easier to do so and ignore the harsher things this City presents us with, and the fact we're even in this place to start with.
This will not do. I am more adept than that and the facts are simple:
We are in a City in a world suspended from our own.
It is a dangerous place.
And we were but high school students.
While the normal responsibilities of school and family expectancies are not presented to us currently it does not me we can hide our heads in the sand completely and act ignorant. Correction; I can not.
If we were at home, had never come here, I wonder... Would we be planning our futures? Would I be off to medical school trying to overtake the footsteps of my bothers?
If we had never met... Yes, maybe so. But because of him, the possible successor to the rival business, whom I was supposed to just keep close as a careful business tactic, I wonder where his spinning and skipping would take us instead.
They with their tricks and games but unexpected loyalty to this little game. What would they be doing now if not connected to us, I wonder.
Would he be here if his cousin had not been recruited. And in turn if he had not been recruited would there still be restraining himself?
And what of her? People enter our lives and throw what we think we know upside-down. It's taken me many years to find that this is not always necessarily a bad thing.
I digress. Heavily.
Yes, we are normal people, all of us from our world. We are most certainly not without talents of our own, but what will we do when it's time to go into the future? Currently, that does not seem an issue given the situation. But while we are here we must show our ability as humans to adapt to our surrounding, to survive and maintain ourselves. As such, with medical knowledge, as provided by my family, I'll be offering my service at the City's general hospital. I lack the normal credentials I'd have on my side, background, funding, reference, etc. however, I feel I would not be at a disadvantage. After all, this is not a normal location.
It will mean some time management and endurance, but nothing I feel I won't be able to handle. Adjustment and sacrifices must be made in any tight situation.
And for time being at least, they must not know. This is a responsibility I want to take on myself, because I should be able to do things. He's absolutely right. Even in this situation I should be able to fix things.
Considering how unpredictable this City is and how random its victims are I need to be in a position where I can be prepared for such things. It's a selfish reason for wanting to work there, but as matters stand I foresee deterioration in morale. I can not afford to simple watch such things.
Our world, cruel and dull though it may be, seemed a lot brighter during the last few years and I am not ignorant regarding the reason for that. Dim though this City may be, I'm sure it can be brightened here, also. But not if it sucks the life from us first, and thus the precautions, the additional funds and ergo more activities for the Club.
Can-kicking will only be an appropriate means to restore confidence and drive for so long, I fear. Which is why, as stated above, I can not afford to over-look the harsh reality of this typically unrealistic place. In doing this sharing of my time before formal work and the Club perhaps I can suspend reality for them a little. Perhaps I really am taking this role of 'mother' more than I had anticipated.
Careful how you play your hand, Kyouya. A bad sleight may cost you more than you originally bid.
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[ Filtered to the Mad Hatter; ]
I do believe you and I were intending on engaging ourselves in a discussion of sorts rather soon.
Would it be so bold of me to present a request to do early this evening, perhaps? Or tomorrow, if better suited to your schedule? If not, I will rearrange to a more appropriate time.
---
It would appear that my left shoe, of all my pairs, is missing. How very troubling, though it would appear I am not the only victim to this theft.
Once more, this City presents itself as one that is not suited to 'our kind'. It has come to my attention over the period of time that we have been here we are actually in a very small percentage of the various types of citizen residing within this City.
We are normal.
Human. Without 'powers' in the supernatural definition of the word. Normal.
Our world, while a cruel one at times, does not present us with moments where we would be required to shoot balls of concentrated flame from our hands, or materialise objects from no-where, or heal wounds without medical assistance.
Healing and healers... This is a concept that has been plaguing my mind of late. Ever since Tamaki brought up my medical knowledge and that by utilizing it I should be able to fix things. That is what doctors try to do - fix people, save them, heal them.
Yet this place presents us with healers. Actual healers. People with powers that far surpass that of practitioners of our world. For whatever reason, be it the up-bringing my family have given me, my impending involvement with the medical world as a whole or the just the concept itself, I have felt a little dejected and disappointed in myself. Angry, even.
What have I been doing since being here? While I'm not out to impress anyone in this City my behaviour and priorities have been shameful for what I am capable of. Perhaps I have been suspending my sense of reality in place of putting my focus into the Club and its members. It's much easier to do so and ignore the harsher things this City presents us with, and the fact we're even in this place to start with.
This will not do. I am more adept than that and the facts are simple:
We are in a City in a world suspended from our own.
It is a dangerous place.
And we were but high school students.
While the normal responsibilities of school and family expectancies are not presented to us currently it does not me we can hide our heads in the sand completely and act ignorant. Correction; I can not.
If we were at home, had never come here, I wonder... Would we be planning our futures? Would I be off to medical school trying to overtake the footsteps of my bothers?
If we had never met... Yes, maybe so. But because of him, the possible successor to the rival business, whom I was supposed to just keep close as a careful business tactic, I wonder where his spinning and skipping would take us instead.
They with their tricks and games but unexpected loyalty to this little game. What would they be doing now if not connected to us, I wonder.
Would he be here if his cousin had not been recruited. And in turn if he had not been recruited would there still be restraining himself?
And what of her? People enter our lives and throw what we think we know upside-down. It's taken me many years to find that this is not always necessarily a bad thing.
I digress. Heavily.
Yes, we are normal people, all of us from our world. We are most certainly not without talents of our own, but what will we do when it's time to go into the future? Currently, that does not seem an issue given the situation. But while we are here we must show our ability as humans to adapt to our surrounding, to survive and maintain ourselves. As such, with medical knowledge, as provided by my family, I'll be offering my service at the City's general hospital. I lack the normal credentials I'd have on my side, background, funding, reference, etc. however, I feel I would not be at a disadvantage. After all, this is not a normal location.
It will mean some time management and endurance, but nothing I feel I won't be able to handle. Adjustment and sacrifices must be made in any tight situation.
And for time being at least, they must not know. This is a responsibility I want to take on myself, because I should be able to do things. He's absolutely right. Even in this situation I should be able to fix things.
Considering how unpredictable this City is and how random its victims are I need to be in a position where I can be prepared for such things. It's a selfish reason for wanting to work there, but as matters stand I foresee deterioration in morale. I can not afford to simple watch such things.
Our world, cruel and dull though it may be, seemed a lot brighter during the last few years and I am not ignorant regarding the reason for that. Dim though this City may be, I'm sure it can be brightened here, also. But not if it sucks the life from us first, and thus the precautions, the additional funds and ergo more activities for the Club.
Can-kicking will only be an appropriate means to restore confidence and drive for so long, I fear. Which is why, as stated above, I can not afford to over-look the harsh reality of this typically unrealistic place. In doing this sharing of my time before formal work and the Club perhaps I can suspend reality for them a little. Perhaps I really am taking this role of 'mother' more than I had anticipated.
Careful how you play your hand, Kyouya. A bad sleight may cost you more than you originally bid.
---
[ Filtered to the Mad Hatter; ]
I do believe you and I were intending on engaging ourselves in a discussion of sorts rather soon.
Would it be so bold of me to present a request to do early this evening, perhaps? Or tomorrow, if better suited to your schedule? If not, I will rearrange to a more appropriate time.
---
It would appear that my left shoe, of all my pairs, is missing. How very troubling, though it would appear I am not the only victim to this theft.