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The mother, loss of identity.
She cooed to the child, feeling an instant sense of maternal instinct, hugging the child closer to her bosom to protect her from the chilly weather. A lump developed in her throat, and as she tried to swallow it down, tears formed in her eyes. why was she crying? It was happening again, this irrational, unusual feeling of loneliness.
She always ( Read more... ) -
This feels the same.
This feels the same as before.
I can't tell.
so silent.
straight faced, emotionless.
being used is a cycle,
female dependency, low self-esteem,
unaware of the truth.
maybe, just maybe,
but then again,
it happened before,
"segundo." -
today,
I had to step back and think.
What is this?
So unrealistic,
so transient,
fleeting,
unknowing.
I've never felt more...empty. -
song
"But when the heart breaks no it don't break even." -
My heart
My heart goes out to anything, anyone that touches it.
Recently, it's been through a lot. Ups and downs, loops and twirls, stillness and pounding.
Sometimes, I wonder if it needs a break. But I can't do apathy. Not really. Even when I pretend not to care, one can tell that I'm pretending, and not telling the truth.
For the past week, my heart has ( Read more... ) -
Summer and Home
Every summer, I realize too late that I should've done something with my summer. More often than not, I end up cleaning, organizing, and more cleaning from when I get up to when I go to sleep. That, and some naps interrupted by one thing or another. I make goals, but then being at home prevents me from accomplishing those goals- we have to go visit ( Read more... ) -
Responsibilities
As a third year, I feel the overwhelming sense of doom. Or rather, crushing responsibilities. Rent, groceries, gas, schoolbooks, apartment furnishings...all I want to pay by myself, without parental help. But the problem is finding a job, and balancing that job with school, internship, and org events and meetings. I'm hoping it'll all come ( Read more... ) -
Slim in 6
I'm not posting this as an advertisement, nor am I getting paid for blogging about this workout video. Just to inform readers if it works or not ( Read more... ) -
Weight Loss Journal. Entry 2
Today I had ( Read more... ) -
Weight Loss Journal. Entry 1
So I've been struggling to keep my weight down for years. Entering high school, I was about 120 pounds, but after tennis camp in junior year I averaged 115 lbs. During senior year, I dieted and lifted weights and did sit ups and wore heels every day, and pushed my weight down to 104 lbs, but I ate small portions and drank a lot of tea, which may ( Read more... )