This is all wrong, and it shows. Theres certain things i promised not to let you know.

Tonight I got into a car crash. The car went into the side of the bridge. Attempted to steer the car away from the river, we were unsucsessful, & the tires did not respond. Nobody was hurt.

Physically, I am okay.

( THE OVERCAST IS KILLING ME )

Uhm, last night nanticoke girls wanted to fight us. I ran in cicles around the girls and threw things at them. And screamed metal songs & jumped off cars. This was enjoyable for a short time, until it got boring and I ran out of things to throw. They still want to fight us, I was in the girls face running around her ready to box and she didnt do ( Read more... )

INSOMNIA is my best friend.

IM GOING TO MURDER HEART BEATS IF I DONT FALL ASLEEP TONIGHT. WHATEVER. FUCK. SHIT. CARNIVAL.

IHATEYOU.

i'm not homicidal.

FUCK. gfsmopraghoireahjh. I dont know what is going on.

i miss you.

Its the middle of summer & i'm still taking nothing seriously. My nights run from midnight to dawn, wether I am alone or not. And I havent been seeing clearly. Only because I dont really want to. I've been scattering thoughts of hypocrisy, and relativity. I break rules without even realizing it now. I still reckless and still incresingly average. ( Read more... )

gfdsgreghe i dont know what is going on.

Today was pretty sick. Me and Al went to Barnes and Noble. Then got out the well needed acoustic guitar, went to bk, met up with the lovely tiff stacy, then went to the mall. I walked around the mall with the guitar singing about everyone who walked passed me. Some people appreciated, others did not. There were temptations of stealing a ( Read more... )

I close my eyes, and swallow pain.. my body aches like saturday.

Today I went to new york. I just had to get my picture take for a pharmaceutical add, it was lame. I've been feeling shitty for no reason. The car smells like ashes and ink. After my photoshoot I went to greenwich village. I ate onion rings and cake at this really great cafe. The ( Read more... )

'TONIGHT
I
WILL
STAY
AWAKE
LONG
ENOUGH
TO
STOP
BREATHING.'

Or atleast until my body numbs...

gfrksagneangrleg frustration. i quit. its 4am. i wont sleep tonight.

And my body still aches...Whatever. I'll wait. I'll procrastinate. I'll have my way. I'll reconsider allowing any form of change. I'll take more steps. I'll forget everything. I'll start over. I'll stop tearing. I'll make everything perfect. I'll follow guidlines. I'll break boundries. I'll watch carefully on the side. I'll avoid making any sudden ( Read more... )

It was when i felt my face against the cold bathroom floor, thats when i realized im never going to drink again.

P.S - Im sorry, i know thats not how you imagined it. But i was never any good at timing. I still see it perfectly.