11 and 15; Leeteuk/Kyuhyun; G
Title: 11 and 15
Pair: Leeteuk/Kyuhyun
Rating: G
Summary: Leeteuk has a secret that he's kept hidden for 85 years. Will he ever tell him?
A/N: Based on the song, "100 Years" by Five For Fighting. Hope you like it.
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I sat in the grass waiting for the day to pass. There was nothing to do lately it seemed. I closed my eyes and sighed. But not long after my lids slid closed, there was a shadow above me. I cracked open my eye to see a tall boy maybe a little younger than me standing there. I sat up and he just stared at me for a minute.
“Can you help me?” he asked. I lifted my brow.
“What do you need help with?” I asked. He showed me his shovel and the little tree that stood behind him. “Are you planting a tree?” He nodded with a bright smile. I smiled back and got up. As we walked to the spot he planned to plant the little sapling, we talked a little. “What’s your name?” I asked him.
“Kyuhyun.” he chirped. “What’s yours?”
“Leeteuk.” I answered. “How old are you?”
“I’m 11!” he proclaimed proudly. I couldn’t help but smile even more.
“I’m 15.” I said. “Why do you want to plant a tree?”
“Because my mom said I can see how much I grow if it grows with me. I don’t get it, but she says someday I will.” I could see him roll his eyes. I laughed. As I helped him dig his hole, he carefully placed the little tree in the dirt and covered the roots. When everything was done, he grabbed my hand and asked me to play with him.
How was I going to say no?
I'm 22 for a moment
He feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
Years later, me and Kyuhyun had grown into great friends. But I became busier as the years went on. Neither of us went back to the tree very often. But every now and again, we had a little meeting there for old time’s sake.
It had grown strong in the last 7 years. The trunk had thickened and grown taller while the branches became longer. It was a beautiful sight during the fall. But neither of us could appreciate it for what it meant to us. We still hadn’t gotten the point of planting that little tree.
Late into my 22nd year of life, I had realized there was some hidden feelings that were slowly surfacing for the younger boy, Kyuhyun. I hadn’t noticed it before, but I was missing him like crazy.
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I wanted nothing more than to see him again. I wanted to be 15 and he 11 where we could still meet all the time. But I resisted. We were both busy and if I had an urge to see him, who said he would come? I couldn’t ask too much of him.
But I missed him.
I still called him every now and then. But I never told him about my feelings. I couldn’t lose him just because he thought I was a freak. But no matter what, I continued to hold my love for him in my heart.
I didn’t see the other faces as I walked on the street and I didn’t look at anyone else with the same eyes that I used to look upon him. And he never noticed. He never backed away from me and his smile never faltered the few times we met. It continued like that for a long time.
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
It was 11 years after discovering my own hidden feelings that I began to think a little more about them. I looked at him again and noticed the man he had become. We were both out of college working close together. He didn’t have a girlfriend, and he wasn’t looking. He was happy with the life he had currently.
But I looked at all our friends. They were getting married to beautiful women and some were getting ready to have children. Heck! Some had children already. And whenever I saw them, they always smiled with the greatest happiness I had ever known. But while they smiled, I cried inside. I still hadn’t told him anything of how I feel.
Maybe I had been doomed to live a lonely life. I was too scared to be shot down. But I loved him to death. I wanted to tell him, but couldn’t bring myself to do it.
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
One day, I went back to that park of ours. All the breath left my body when I saw our tree on the hill. It had grown bigger than I remembered and it was full with healthy leaves and a thick trunk. I walked up to it and pressed my hand to the bark.
Why did I suddenly feel so old?
“You came too?”
I turned around to see Kyuhyun standing there. I just nodded. “For some reason, I felt like I needed to be here for a moment or two.”
“Me too.” said Kyuhyun. Then he walked up next to me as he looked up to the top of the tree. “It’s gotten big hasn’t it?” he said. I just nodded. There was nothing I could say. “I think it’s been 30 years since we planted it.” Kyuhyun said. Again, I just nodded. Then Kyuhyun added, “Maybe that’s why I feel so old.” -he turned to me- “Can you believe we’ve been friends for 30 years already?”
I laughed a little. “Time flies right?” I said sadly. “But growing old isn’t all that bad. Years are just numbers. As long as we’re happy, it doesn’t matter how old we get.”
Kyuhyun smiled, then he looked at his watch. “I have to go. I’ll see you at work tomorrow.” He waved and was gone.
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
After getting home, I laid down on my bed almost instantly. My eyes stayed open for a while as I just stared at the ceiling. As I turned my head to the side, I spotted a picture of us on the nightstand. He had stuffed my ice cream in my face and my mother thought it was a great opportunity for a picture.
He was laughing and I was making a bad attempt to scowl at him. But you could see the outline of a smile making its way onto my chocolate covered face.
I was 15, he was 11.
Tears sprang to my eyes without warning. I didn’t know what I was so upset about. Maybe I just missed my time with him. I was in love with him after all. It was probably normal to look back and wonder if you could have made the good times last. But it was too late now.
Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I had finally lost the color in my hair. No longer was it a natural black, but an odd kind of off-white. The same thing had happened to him as well. He had both aged to the point where we had to quit our jobs. All my joints were aching and it hurt to do the things I loved to do. But I held on when it came to going to see our tree.
It had quit growing towards the sky years ago. It only widened every year now. It had turned from that tiny sapling into the grand tree I was seeing before my eyes. I finally understood the meaning of planting this tree.
It had grown with me and Kyuhyun. Every day that we grew, the tree grew as well. But after all those years, neither of us had noticed it until now. It was a great symbol of our journey together; even if half of that journey was spent just thinking about each other.
I was old. I had maybe 20 years left. Maybe 30. Maybe more than that. But our friendship had lasted for all these years and I treasured that bond we shared. I’m sure he did too. I shed tears that day. Happiness or sadness, I’m not sure.
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I can’t walk on my own anymore. My legs have long given up that ability. But I still have my ways of getting to our tree. Nothing was going to stop me from seeing the most precious sight in my existence. Kyuhyun followed me today. He says there’s a sense of nostalgia around this tree.
I feel it too.
We are laying in the grass next to the roots of our tree. We only share a few words of conversation, but we enjoy the silence in between. But I know there’s something I still have to tell him. I haven’t ever told him in all my years of knowing that I love him. He had never gotten married. Neither had I. We are both single and getting ready to die any time. I’m expecting to go first. I’m older after all.
But before that…
“Kyuhyun,” I began in my raspy and cracked voice. He tilted his head to let me know I had his attention. “I have something to tell you.”
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
“Go ahead.” he said to me. I turn my face to stare at the sky for a moment. I seriously think about if I should tell him this. I’m still scared. But everything we’ve been through flashes through my mind. The planting of the tree. School. Jobs. Talking. Playing. Growing old. We did everything that made us happy in this lifetime.
But I wanted it all back.
I want to be able to see his smiling face without the wrinkles. I want to see his once dark hair. I want to do everything over and tell him how I felt from the start. I want to treat him better. I want to go back 80 years. Maybe not even 80; maybe just 10 or 20. I just want to spend my time with him a little more. Just a little more. Even if I just had a year more, I wanted it back.
But then the words I said to him come back to me. ‘Years are just numbers. They don’t mean anything.’ Even if I did get those years back, it probably wouldn’t have made any difference. All I could do, was live in this moment.
“Kyuhyun, I’ve loved you since you were a teenager.” That was the best way I can put it. I don’t know how else to say it. But at least it’s the truth. Now I’m just waiting for his answer. He spoke up after a minute.
“I’ve loved you too.” he said. “More than you will ever know.” I can feel tears wetting my eyes. I held his hand after that and we just stayed there underneath the cover of the tree. Our tree. The one we planted together. The one we watched grow. The tree that brought us together.
Slowly, I closed my eyes and then him and I were both in the clouds; where we could remain 11 and 15 forever.
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
Pair: Leeteuk/Kyuhyun
Rating: G
Summary: Leeteuk has a secret that he's kept hidden for 85 years. Will he ever tell him?
A/N: Based on the song, "100 Years" by Five For Fighting. Hope you like it.
I'm 15 for a moment
Caught in between 10 and 20
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I sat in the grass waiting for the day to pass. There was nothing to do lately it seemed. I closed my eyes and sighed. But not long after my lids slid closed, there was a shadow above me. I cracked open my eye to see a tall boy maybe a little younger than me standing there. I sat up and he just stared at me for a minute.
“Can you help me?” he asked. I lifted my brow.
“What do you need help with?” I asked. He showed me his shovel and the little tree that stood behind him. “Are you planting a tree?” He nodded with a bright smile. I smiled back and got up. As we walked to the spot he planned to plant the little sapling, we talked a little. “What’s your name?” I asked him.
“Kyuhyun.” he chirped. “What’s yours?”
“Leeteuk.” I answered. “How old are you?”
“I’m 11!” he proclaimed proudly. I couldn’t help but smile even more.
“I’m 15.” I said. “Why do you want to plant a tree?”
“Because my mom said I can see how much I grow if it grows with me. I don’t get it, but she says someday I will.” I could see him roll his eyes. I laughed. As I helped him dig his hole, he carefully placed the little tree in the dirt and covered the roots. When everything was done, he grabbed my hand and asked me to play with him.
How was I going to say no?
I'm 22 for a moment
He feels better than ever
And we're on fire
Making our way back from Mars
Years later, me and Kyuhyun had grown into great friends. But I became busier as the years went on. Neither of us went back to the tree very often. But every now and again, we had a little meeting there for old time’s sake.
It had grown strong in the last 7 years. The trunk had thickened and grown taller while the branches became longer. It was a beautiful sight during the fall. But neither of us could appreciate it for what it meant to us. We still hadn’t gotten the point of planting that little tree.
Late into my 22nd year of life, I had realized there was some hidden feelings that were slowly surfacing for the younger boy, Kyuhyun. I hadn’t noticed it before, but I was missing him like crazy.
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
I wanted nothing more than to see him again. I wanted to be 15 and he 11 where we could still meet all the time. But I resisted. We were both busy and if I had an urge to see him, who said he would come? I couldn’t ask too much of him.
But I missed him.
I still called him every now and then. But I never told him about my feelings. I couldn’t lose him just because he thought I was a freak. But no matter what, I continued to hold my love for him in my heart.
I didn’t see the other faces as I walked on the street and I didn’t look at anyone else with the same eyes that I used to look upon him. And he never noticed. He never backed away from me and his smile never faltered the few times we met. It continued like that for a long time.
I'm 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I'm a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
It was 11 years after discovering my own hidden feelings that I began to think a little more about them. I looked at him again and noticed the man he had become. We were both out of college working close together. He didn’t have a girlfriend, and he wasn’t looking. He was happy with the life he had currently.
But I looked at all our friends. They were getting married to beautiful women and some were getting ready to have children. Heck! Some had children already. And whenever I saw them, they always smiled with the greatest happiness I had ever known. But while they smiled, I cried inside. I still hadn’t told him anything of how I feel.
Maybe I had been doomed to live a lonely life. I was too scared to be shot down. But I loved him to death. I wanted to tell him, but couldn’t bring myself to do it.
I'm 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I'm heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
One day, I went back to that park of ours. All the breath left my body when I saw our tree on the hill. It had grown bigger than I remembered and it was full with healthy leaves and a thick trunk. I walked up to it and pressed my hand to the bark.
Why did I suddenly feel so old?
“You came too?”
I turned around to see Kyuhyun standing there. I just nodded. “For some reason, I felt like I needed to be here for a moment or two.”
“Me too.” said Kyuhyun. Then he walked up next to me as he looked up to the top of the tree. “It’s gotten big hasn’t it?” he said. I just nodded. There was nothing I could say. “I think it’s been 30 years since we planted it.” Kyuhyun said. Again, I just nodded. Then Kyuhyun added, “Maybe that’s why I feel so old.” -he turned to me- “Can you believe we’ve been friends for 30 years already?”
I laughed a little. “Time flies right?” I said sadly. “But growing old isn’t all that bad. Years are just numbers. As long as we’re happy, it doesn’t matter how old we get.”
Kyuhyun smiled, then he looked at his watch. “I have to go. I’ll see you at work tomorrow.” He waved and was gone.
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy, Time to lose yourself
Within a morning star
15 I'm all right with you
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
After getting home, I laid down on my bed almost instantly. My eyes stayed open for a while as I just stared at the ceiling. As I turned my head to the side, I spotted a picture of us on the nightstand. He had stuffed my ice cream in my face and my mother thought it was a great opportunity for a picture.
He was laughing and I was making a bad attempt to scowl at him. But you could see the outline of a smile making its way onto my chocolate covered face.
I was 15, he was 11.
Tears sprang to my eyes without warning. I didn’t know what I was so upset about. Maybe I just missed my time with him. I was in love with him after all. It was probably normal to look back and wonder if you could have made the good times last. But it was too late now.
Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We're moving on...
I had finally lost the color in my hair. No longer was it a natural black, but an odd kind of off-white. The same thing had happened to him as well. He had both aged to the point where we had to quit our jobs. All my joints were aching and it hurt to do the things I loved to do. But I held on when it came to going to see our tree.
It had quit growing towards the sky years ago. It only widened every year now. It had turned from that tiny sapling into the grand tree I was seeing before my eyes. I finally understood the meaning of planting this tree.
It had grown with me and Kyuhyun. Every day that we grew, the tree grew as well. But after all those years, neither of us had noticed it until now. It was a great symbol of our journey together; even if half of that journey was spent just thinking about each other.
I was old. I had maybe 20 years left. Maybe 30. Maybe more than that. But our friendship had lasted for all these years and I treasured that bond we shared. I’m sure he did too. I shed tears that day. Happiness or sadness, I’m not sure.
I'm 99 for a moment
Dying for just another moment
And I'm just dreaming
Counting the ways to where you are
I can’t walk on my own anymore. My legs have long given up that ability. But I still have my ways of getting to our tree. Nothing was going to stop me from seeing the most precious sight in my existence. Kyuhyun followed me today. He says there’s a sense of nostalgia around this tree.
I feel it too.
We are laying in the grass next to the roots of our tree. We only share a few words of conversation, but we enjoy the silence in between. But I know there’s something I still have to tell him. I haven’t ever told him in all my years of knowing that I love him. He had never gotten married. Neither had I. We are both single and getting ready to die any time. I’m expecting to go first. I’m older after all.
But before that…
“Kyuhyun,” I began in my raspy and cracked voice. He tilted his head to let me know I had his attention. “I have something to tell you.”
15 there's still time for you
22 I feel her too
33 you’re on your way
Every day's a new day...
15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to choose
“Go ahead.” he said to me. I turn my face to stare at the sky for a moment. I seriously think about if I should tell him this. I’m still scared. But everything we’ve been through flashes through my mind. The planting of the tree. School. Jobs. Talking. Playing. Growing old. We did everything that made us happy in this lifetime.
But I wanted it all back.
I want to be able to see his smiling face without the wrinkles. I want to see his once dark hair. I want to do everything over and tell him how I felt from the start. I want to treat him better. I want to go back 80 years. Maybe not even 80; maybe just 10 or 20. I just want to spend my time with him a little more. Just a little more. Even if I just had a year more, I wanted it back.
But then the words I said to him come back to me. ‘Years are just numbers. They don’t mean anything.’ Even if I did get those years back, it probably wouldn’t have made any difference. All I could do, was live in this moment.
“Kyuhyun, I’ve loved you since you were a teenager.” That was the best way I can put it. I don’t know how else to say it. But at least it’s the truth. Now I’m just waiting for his answer. He spoke up after a minute.
“I’ve loved you too.” he said. “More than you will ever know.” I can feel tears wetting my eyes. I held his hand after that and we just stayed there underneath the cover of the tree. Our tree. The one we planted together. The one we watched grow. The tree that brought us together.
Slowly, I closed my eyes and then him and I were both in the clouds; where we could remain 11 and 15 forever.
Hey 15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live