Sperm donor thinks he knows whats best for my Stelli. He wants rights. I'm so irrate. I feel sick, I feel dread. I have never had such horrible, angry, hateful feeling towards anyone like this before. I can't even explain the rage I feel. He knows whats best?? WTF he doesn't even KNOW "his child". I have never wished death on anyone before. I want ( Read more... )

My Christmas Baby...

Stella almost 7 months old!

( The little elf herself! )

We went ring shopping today. What a scary and excited experience.

Stella is crawling up a storm and just getting to be sooo independent. She's such a little goof. She also has 2 teeth! It's hard to believe that she'll be 7 months soon. Where has the time go? I'm having baby dreams again but we must wait. I know its for the best.

Went to court.

His girlfriend is way crazier than anyone thought. Ever.

Talked to lawyer.

Tough decisions to make.

Will make out our lives forever different.

Finances vs. Him.

Whole world on my left shoulder.

Stella's going to be a ladybug for Halloween!

( Stella Bella! )

Stella met her Daddy today. Nothing terribly intresting can about. He didn't seem too very intrested in her. Didn't even ask to hold. He made some faces at her and tickled her feet. She smiled and smiled at him, like she knew who he really was ( Read more... )

Well after a almost a year of waiting patiently, very patiently, the boy finally decided that he wants more. We talked about our future me, him,and baby(s). Where we would go and what we can do. Settling in the country, happy together. He changed in a moment from rough and sarcastic to gentle and affectionate. He wants us to move with him in ( Read more... )

Went back to work last night. What a HOT night! I forgot how hot Fed Ex gets. It was so wonderful to see everyone again and we were sooo insanely busy that I didn't have a ton of time to brood on the fact that I left my little girl ( Read more... )

Drama ( Read more... )

Ahhh. The crazy (tired) life of a single mama!! Miss Stella is doing very well, and even ocasionally sleeping through the night!!! WOO HOOO! I never thought that having 4+ hours of uninterupted hours of sleep would be so wonderful. Stella is 6 weeks old today and is starting to smile and make cute little noises, opposed to those aweful screamy ( Read more... )

Well Stella is here after much anticipation and quite the lengthy labor. SHort version: Labored 27 hours w/ Pitocin no drugs. Heart rate fell, ended up with an emergency Csection ( Read more... )