so jason finally asked me out on a date. but now kaitie is freeking out. i mentioned to sarah that i felt a little supervised, becuase its not just jason and i, its jason, and i, and kaitie, and billie, and jasons room mate who is yet to be named (though i hear that he is the one i should date, as he is incredibly cute, and a very sweet guy ( Read more... )

but todays been a good day. i had a test at seven thirty- got up at seven twenty. speech at 845, breakfast at 920 and then a long hot shower. followed by chapel, and imediatly followed by field experiance (frightening). im afraid of sixth graders ( Read more... )

and how to follow up an entry of seven pages ( Read more... )

i am fucking lonely here.

is it strange, that as much as i love him, i dont want to be with him again. not simply in terms of a realtionship (because i know he wouldnt treat me with the love that i deserve) but ive changed my plans for spring too, im still headed to wichita, but i think im going to be sleeping alone that week ( Read more... )

my car was broken into. i am so angry. and mostly hurt.

im in tears this hurts so much. i dont even know if its my tooth, or the bump under my chin, or the sore in my mouth. i just know that i would be realy happy if the right side of my face were numb for a bit.

there is an abundance of non commital boys in this world. and im not fond of any of them ( Read more... )

so, yes. here, breathing still. gah. and cold.
in my own room though.

i feel like im abandoning everything good, and i know ive got to make this move- but if i cant stop crying, ill never be able to make the drive in the morning ( Read more... )