06/19/06 // IC!Alfons and Transmutey!Ed
Who: IC!Alfons and Transmutey!Ed
When: 06/19/06
Rating: PG-13
Category: Misc Pairings, Side Plot
Summary: T!Ed goes to tell Alfons about seeing C!Envy. They go from emo to inexplicably angry to emo. It all goes back to emo.
T!Ed: *walks slowly out of the bedroom, fidgeting a little, and peers out into the living* Alfons..?
IC!Alfons: ::looks up from his spot on the couch where he's reading:: Ja, Edward? ::frowns a little::
T!Ed: *sits down on a spot on the couch next to him, looking at the ground and biting his lip* Um, I told you I'd tell you about the other stuff in the morning, so..?
IC!Alfons: ::puts his book down and scoots close, putting an arm around him:: Alright then...
T!Ed: I told you I had a few hallucinations while you were gone, right..? Of, um, Envy...
IC!Alfons: Ja, you told me about that. ::nods, rubbing his shoulder a little::
T!Ed: He... *frowns, burying is face against his neck* He wants me to come back... Wants me to make that material for him... He said it was pathetic, what's happened to me...
IC!Alfons: ::sighs heavily and pulls him a little closer:: Well, just ignore him and what he says. I know it is hard to, but you have to try... Especially because, as you say, it is just a hallucination...
T!Ed: *presses closer to him, whimpering* ...But I... I kind of want to do it again...
IC!Alfons: ::frowns and kisses the top of his head:: But you know better than to do that. You are stronger than that.
T!Ed: No, I'm not... After all of that, and I still want to do it again..? He said he'd pay me double this time, for that material... That I could call him anytime that I wanted.
IC!Alfons: Well... You will not have to deal with that any longer, once the medicine starts working, you know... Just wait a few weeks.. Bitte..
T!Ed: Alfons, I... *gulps* Can you feel hallucinations?
IC!Alfons: ::blinks:: I... No, probably not... ::eyes widen slightly:: Do you think he is really here, then...?
T!Ed: No, no! I don't know... *bites his lip* I mean, it could have been someone else and I thought it was him, like I thought you were those dead things, you know? But why someone would leave me with a cigarette...
IC!Alfons: I... ahm... ::looks down a little, growing afraid:: If he is here... Edward, you need to be really careful... And whatever you do, do not do what he tells you to do... You know he does not want good things for you...
T!Ed: H-he said that he wouldn't hurt me, though... That it was depressing how I was now, and that I was much happier when I was working for him... And it's true too, you know...
IC!Alfons: ::frowns:: You were happier when you... Were doing those things? ::shrinks back just a little::
T!Ed: *winces and pulls away from him slightly, nodding slowly* Y-yeah...
IC!Alfons: Edward... ::looks away a little:: When you are like that, though, the things you do... We cannot sustain a relationship if you act like that, you know that... You told me you hated me, things like that, and... I get so scared that you might hurt me... And you know what will happen if you hurt people again and get caught again... They will not give you a second chance...
T!Ed: I was told I wouldn't get killed... What happened last time wouldn't happen again at all... *frowns* And I know... I... I don't want to hurt you anymore, but what am I supposed to do..? Envy was even surprised that we were still together...
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: You cannot trust him... Last time when things got too much to handle, he just left you here to fend for yourself. And if he is surprised we are still together, then you should be proud of that. I am.
T!Ed: But he had business to take care of elsewhere... He wouldn't have just left me like, he was going to come back. *curls up on the couch, arms around his legs with his knees tucked close against his chest* And I guess he did, sort of.
IC!Alfons: ::rests a hand on his side, watching him:: Edward, I do not think I would be able to handle you doing that again. It tears me apart inside. And even if the police do not come after you, what if they come after me for helping you? I hate to be selfish about this, but it is not a good idea for you to go off and kill people not only because of what could happen to you or others, but because of what could happen to me, too.
T!Ed: Nothing would happen to you at all. You're not a part of it. They'd probably just interrogate you, yeah, but nothing more. *buries his face against his knees* It's not just tearing you apart, you know. I hate being like this. I hate seeing things and I hate being sick, and all I want is to be normal, or at least close to it. I was close enough to normal the other way. I was happy, at least.
IC!Alfons: ::frowns and snuggles against him:: So you are saying that if you try and stay this way, where you do not harm anyone, you are unhappy, but if you help Envy, by making that knife and hurting people, it makes you happy..? And that is all there is to it? One way or the other, one of us is miserable?
T!Ed: *flinches a little at the snuggling* I guess so...
IC!Alfons: Is that real happiness, though, when you are... Off, murdering? Do you really prefer that to spending time being happy with me?
T!Ed: I... I think so... I don't know. I don't even know what's real anymore, so how can I answer that for you?
IC!Alfons: ::sighs and closes his eyes:: Can you try and hold on for a few weeks? The medicine will help you feel better.. More normal, happier like you should be, and you will not see and hear things that are not there... Bitte, I want you to be happy, but not if it means killing innocent people. I am sorry, but I cannot let that happen.
T!Ed: *peers at him from over one of his knees* ...What if I do it anyway, though?
IC!Alfons: I... I think once the medicine starts to work, maybe you will not feel like you should do that sort of thing... I do not want to think about what might happen if you do as Envy says, because I do not wish to remember what happened last time... Honestly, it makes me so terrified I feel sick...
T!Ed: You won't have to know at all~ And if being like that is normal for me? Truly normal? There won't be anything anyone can do, then..~
IC!Alfons: ::shudders and pulls away a little with a sigh:: Edward, bitte. I love you, and I cannot imagine life without you. I do not want to lose you, but I fear that that will happen if you start to become like that again...
T!Ed: Why would I start to become like that again when I'm already like that~? *smiles sweetly up at him* I remember how to make that material. It's all up here. *taps a temple lightly with a finger*
IC!Alfons: ::shrinks a little, looking at him:: Stop it. Bitte.
T!Ed: Stop what~?
IC!Alfons: That. Stop acting like that...
T!Ed: Just acting like myself, nothing different~
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head a little, watching him cautiously:: If that were true, I would not be suddenly starting to feel afraid of what might happen. That tone of voice you take on sometimes is not normal.
T!Ed: *drums his fingers on the couch, grinning brightly* It's my normal tone of voice, you know, nothing to get freaked out about~ I'm just the same ol' little Edward that you know and love.
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: I do not know how I am supposed to think that. Although maybe it is wrong of me to think that there is a normal part of you and a non-normal part. Your attitude can change so rapidly sometimes. ::sighs:: I want to stay by your side, honestly, but... I do not know how I am supposed to do that if I am afraid of you...
T!Ed: Then don't be afraid of me. Simple, right? *hops of the couch and starts pacing around the living room* You know, it'll be hard to get the ingredientst for that material again. I suppose I could just weld together some of the kitchen knives to hold me over for now...
IC!Alfons: ::frowns, watching him pace around:: So I am just supposed to not fear you when you get like this? I do not think that is possible... I mean, the way you get... If you will not let me even approach without threatening to hurt me, how am I supposed to keep from fearing you? How are we supposed to have a relationship if you will not let me hold you and kiss you and love you?
T!Ed: *stops, raising his eyebrows at him* You can still do those things. Not like I'm going to stop you or hurt you or anything like that..~ *snickers a little* It's the other people I'm going to make hurt. If I'm going to suffer like this, then they're going to suffer with me~
IC!Alfons: I do not want you to hurt anyone. It is not right to do that to innocent people.
T!Ed: Yet it happens anyway. And they're all far from innocent. They made me like this, so I'm going to hurt them.
IC!Alfons: Nobody made you like that. You are who you are, and you have nobody to blame for it. Nobody deserves to be hurt just because you want to hurt them.
T!Ed: Well, too bad! Because I'm going to hurt them if I want to~
IC!Alfons: I am not going to let you do that, Edward.
T!Ed: Yes you are. *smirks and trots into the kitchen*
IC!Alfons: ::gets up and walks after him slowly, shaking his head::
T!Ed: *giggles to himself and starts digging silverware out of the drawers, piling them up on the counter*
IC!Alfons: ::heads into the kitchen and leans against a counter, watching him tiredly:: Stop, bitte. This is the last time I am going to ask.
T!Ed: *glances at him and snorts, then surveys the pile, trying to decide how exactly he wants to transmute them*
IC!Alfons: ::claps and presses his hands to the counter, hoping to bind his hands with the countertop::
T!Ed: *snarls angrily, hands trapped beneath a layer of counter, and glares at him coldly*
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: Edward, I told you, I am not going to let you hurt people. I do not care if it makes you happy to do so. It is not right. And I do not want you getting arrested for violating your house arrest, because you will end up serving your sentence in prison instead. Honestly, this is all wearing me out. I went to find those herbs because I wanted to help you, so we could live a normal life together...
T!Ed: You know, you did have a choice to leave me~ You should have just gone with your dear, precious brother instead and left me here to do as I please. Oh, but no! I'm so fragile that I can't do anything for myself, now can I? Edward needs someone to watch him, to care for him, to do everything little thing for him. Apparently I'm just not good enough, so you know what? I'm going to do the one thing that I am good at, and that's butchering the hell out of people~
IC!Alfons: ::sighs:: If you insist on turning the good things into bad things, I do not know what to tell you. You should be happy I chose to stay with you, rather than making it into something else, like you seem to be doing. I love you, I have told you that over and over again. That is why I am with you. If you do not want me to be with you, then tell me, so we can both spare each other the pain that seems to haunt both of us. I was so happy yesterday to come back to you... I missed you so much... ::blinks a little, eyes watering:: But... Now, with you acting like this... Gott, I do not know what to do. I am tired, Edward, and I just want to be with you and be happy.
T!Ed: *growls* The fuck do you want me to make out of it? You love someone else that looks exactly like me and I'll always be second best to him, and you know it! But killing..~ Oh, killing is such a different subject. *laughs* No one is better at than I am~ Getting caught once? Heh, I can just easily run away, go back to Envy and be normal again~
IC!Alfons: ::hangs his head slightly:: I wish you would get over that. I know you probably will not, and it is unfair of me to hope you will, but... Edward, I stayed with you. I have continued to stay, through all of this. I have spent so much time with you, and I want to spend more time like we have before. If I thought of you as merely second best, that would not be the case...
T!Ed: Too bad~ You did that to me, so get over it. *tugs his hands in an attempt to get them free*
IC!Alfons: Get over what? You are the one who has to get over this issue you have with my brother. I do not understand why you are complaining when I have chosen to stay with you. What more do you want from me? ::sighs heavily::
T!Ed: Nothing~ Absolutely nothing except to be free from this fucking counter so I can do what I want to.
IC!Alfons: I am not going to let you massacre innocent people, Edward. And so you will stay right here, stuck to the counter, until I can be sure you are not going to hurt anyone.
T!Ed: You can't keep me stuck to the counter forever. Once I get out, I'm going to hunt them down, every single damn person. And you know what I'm going to do? Cut them right open, letting their guts spill onto the street~ Maybe they'll still be alive afterwards? I could sew them up, then, fix them, like the good little doctor that I am~
IC!Alfons: ::shudders:: Then you will have to stay right where you are until you give up on that desire. I am not going to allow you to do that.
T!Ed: I don't think so. *tugs harder at the bindings, determined to get himself loose*
IC!Alfons: ::claps and presses his hands to the counter again, molding more countertop around his hands and wrists::
T!Ed: *snarls and tries to kick out at him, completely losing his balance in the process, and topples over, knocking into the counter with a yelp*
IC!Alfons: ::strides forward and puts his arms around him, trying to help him to stand up and hoping he didn't hurt his wrist or anything:: Edward, calm down, bitte...
T!Ed: *struggles in his arms, growling with his eyes narrowed, and scrambles to get up on his own, only falling over again*
IC!Alfons: ::keeps a tight hold on him and continues to try and straighten him out:: Stop struggling, you are only making this worse for yourself...
T!Ed: THEN LET GO! *only struggles more furiously, refusing to let him help at all*
IC!Alfons: ::sighs and lets go of him, backing away:: Fine then. I just did not want you to hurt yourself.
T!Ed: *glares at him coolly and stands up, wincing as he puts his weight on his flesh leg*
IC!Alfons: ::frowns sadly, noticing the wince:: Are you alright?
T!Ed: Just fucking peachy, thanks. *transfers his weight over to his automail leg, muttering* Probably fucking sprained my ankle...
IC!Alfons: ::puts his hands in his pockets, watching him and not really sure what to do:: Ahm... I could get some ice for it...
T!Ed: Just go away and leave me the fuck alone. *turns away from him and hunches his shoulders, panting a little*
IC!Alfons: Are you sure you would not like some ice..? If it is really sprained, we do not want it to get swollen...
T!Ed: Oh, who cares? I'll just stand here the rest of the night on a sprained ankle and then when you go to sleep, I'll get myself free~
IC!Alfons: ::frowns sadly:: I am sorry, I did not want you to get hurt, really...
T!Ed: Then you shouldn't have done this to me! You should have let me go so that I could have done what I liked! Oh, but I forget. Edward doesn't matter, he never does. He can't be trusted at all, can he?
IC!Alfons: You do matter! You matter a lot! But no, how am I supposed to just let you walk off and kill people? It is true, I cannot trust you anymore, and it hurts me to admit that, but I do not know how I am supposed to trust you when you were about to go off murdering people!
T!Ed: Then go away and leave me alone!
IC!Alfons: No, because that will not solve anything! You would just go and kill people and I would be afraid constantly that you might try and hunt me down next! Besides which, I love you so much it hurts, and to just up and leave you when there is still a chance you might decide that I am important enough to you for you to stop acting like this would probably cause me more pain than I have ever gone through...
T!Ed: I. Don't. Care. I'm going to go find Envy and do what I want to again, and there's no way anyone will stop me! At least then I can matter.
IC!Alfons: You do matter, Edward. You matter to me. I do not want to leave you, and I do not want you to get hurt.
T!Ed: Kind of too late for that, isn't it? *grins wickedly and gestures towards his ankle with his head*
IC!Alfons: A sprained ankle is a better injury to have to suffer through than a bullet in your head. ::sighs::
T!Ed: I don't care because that won't ever happen~ *laughs*
IC!Alfons: It certainly will not if you stay in the apartment like you are supposed to and do not hurt people.
T!Ed: Well, I'm not going to do that, so get over it.
IC!Alfons: No, I told you already, if it is in my power to keep you from murder, then I will do so, even if you end up hating me for it. I love you, but I am not going to let you kill just so you can be happy. I have to draw the line somewhere.
T!Ed: And I already told you how much I cared about that. Like I said, I'll get free. You can't watch me all of the time~
IC!Alfons: How in the world are you going to get free with your hands buried in the counter, Edward? ::frowns:: I do not think you can do that, despite the fact that you are clearly one of the most intelligent people in the country. It would be a horrible shame to see that intelligence being put to use as a weapon.
T!Ed: I could still do it~ Watch, or better yet, don't. I'll do whatever I damn well please and no one, not even you, will stop me~
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: You are not getting out of that, there is no way you can do it. Actually, no, that is not true. You can get out if you are let out, and that is only going to happen when I am sure you are not going to harm anyone.
T!Ed: *glares at him defiantly, trying to keep the pain off his face from standing on a sprained ankle, and remains silent*
IC!Alfons: ::shrugs and watches him silently::
T!Ed: *continues to stare him down, giving his hands a futile tug*
IC!Alfons: ::leans back against the wall behind him, hands in his pockets, eyes not straying from Ed::
T!Ed: *looks away, instead focusing his eyes on the counter, and whimpers quietly*
IC!Alfons: ::frowns, then sighs softly:: I am sorry about your ankle, I really am.
T!Ed: Go to hell. *hisses and shifts his weight again*
IC!Alfons: It is going to be rather difficult to avoid doing so, eventually. ::sighs and shakes his head:: The best I can do is to make my life a little better to try and make up for the eternal punishment I will undoubtedly receive after I die. ::raises an eyebrow at him::
T!Ed: Don't give me that bull. *turns his head slightly to resume glaring at him* I could care less what the hell is there after we die.
IC!Alfons: Oh, I know. Which is why you will be there with me. ::slides his back down the wall and sits on the floor with a sigh::
T!Ed: *snerks* I won't be going to hell at all. There's no such thing~
IC!Alfons: Well, enjoy that thought while you are able to, then. ::shrugs::
T!Ed: Sure will. *turns away from him again and pants from the effort of standing*
IC!Alfons: ::frowns and stands up, going to the freezer to get some ice::
T!Ed: *watches him from out of the corner of his eyes, scooting away a little as he goes past*
IC!Alfons: ::finds a dishrag and wraps it around the ice, then walks toward him slowly:: Bitte, let me help you out. I do not want you to be in pain when it is so easy to fix.
T!Ed: *narrows his eyes and scoots farther away from him, stifling a small cry* I don't think so.
IC!Alfons: ::takes a step toward him again and cautiously reaches forward to place a hand on his shoulder::
T!Ed: *jerks his shoulder and snaps his head forward, trying to bite his hand*
IC!Alfons: ::flinches and jerks his hand back:: I only want to help...
T!Ed: And I told you that I don't want your help. I want to be left alone!
IC!Alfons: ::stares coolly at him, then sets the rag with the ice on the deformed counter and shrugs:: Fine then. ::walks out of the kitchen::
T!Ed: *snorts and sits down on the floor as best he can, muttering furiously to himself*
IC!Alfons: ::goes and sits by the clockwork city, watching the bits of it in motion and trying not to think about anything else::
T!Ed: *presses his face against one of his arms and sniffles, trying to block out the pain in his ankle*
IC!Alfons: ::staring vacantly at the little city, yep::
When: 06/19/06
Rating: PG-13
Category: Misc Pairings, Side Plot
Summary: T!Ed goes to tell Alfons about seeing C!Envy. They go from emo to inexplicably angry to emo. It all goes back to emo.
T!Ed: *walks slowly out of the bedroom, fidgeting a little, and peers out into the living* Alfons..?
IC!Alfons: ::looks up from his spot on the couch where he's reading:: Ja, Edward? ::frowns a little::
T!Ed: *sits down on a spot on the couch next to him, looking at the ground and biting his lip* Um, I told you I'd tell you about the other stuff in the morning, so..?
IC!Alfons: ::puts his book down and scoots close, putting an arm around him:: Alright then...
T!Ed: I told you I had a few hallucinations while you were gone, right..? Of, um, Envy...
IC!Alfons: Ja, you told me about that. ::nods, rubbing his shoulder a little::
T!Ed: He... *frowns, burying is face against his neck* He wants me to come back... Wants me to make that material for him... He said it was pathetic, what's happened to me...
IC!Alfons: ::sighs heavily and pulls him a little closer:: Well, just ignore him and what he says. I know it is hard to, but you have to try... Especially because, as you say, it is just a hallucination...
T!Ed: *presses closer to him, whimpering* ...But I... I kind of want to do it again...
IC!Alfons: ::frowns and kisses the top of his head:: But you know better than to do that. You are stronger than that.
T!Ed: No, I'm not... After all of that, and I still want to do it again..? He said he'd pay me double this time, for that material... That I could call him anytime that I wanted.
IC!Alfons: Well... You will not have to deal with that any longer, once the medicine starts working, you know... Just wait a few weeks.. Bitte..
T!Ed: Alfons, I... *gulps* Can you feel hallucinations?
IC!Alfons: ::blinks:: I... No, probably not... ::eyes widen slightly:: Do you think he is really here, then...?
T!Ed: No, no! I don't know... *bites his lip* I mean, it could have been someone else and I thought it was him, like I thought you were those dead things, you know? But why someone would leave me with a cigarette...
IC!Alfons: I... ahm... ::looks down a little, growing afraid:: If he is here... Edward, you need to be really careful... And whatever you do, do not do what he tells you to do... You know he does not want good things for you...
T!Ed: H-he said that he wouldn't hurt me, though... That it was depressing how I was now, and that I was much happier when I was working for him... And it's true too, you know...
IC!Alfons: ::frowns:: You were happier when you... Were doing those things? ::shrinks back just a little::
T!Ed: *winces and pulls away from him slightly, nodding slowly* Y-yeah...
IC!Alfons: Edward... ::looks away a little:: When you are like that, though, the things you do... We cannot sustain a relationship if you act like that, you know that... You told me you hated me, things like that, and... I get so scared that you might hurt me... And you know what will happen if you hurt people again and get caught again... They will not give you a second chance...
T!Ed: I was told I wouldn't get killed... What happened last time wouldn't happen again at all... *frowns* And I know... I... I don't want to hurt you anymore, but what am I supposed to do..? Envy was even surprised that we were still together...
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: You cannot trust him... Last time when things got too much to handle, he just left you here to fend for yourself. And if he is surprised we are still together, then you should be proud of that. I am.
T!Ed: But he had business to take care of elsewhere... He wouldn't have just left me like, he was going to come back. *curls up on the couch, arms around his legs with his knees tucked close against his chest* And I guess he did, sort of.
IC!Alfons: ::rests a hand on his side, watching him:: Edward, I do not think I would be able to handle you doing that again. It tears me apart inside. And even if the police do not come after you, what if they come after me for helping you? I hate to be selfish about this, but it is not a good idea for you to go off and kill people not only because of what could happen to you or others, but because of what could happen to me, too.
T!Ed: Nothing would happen to you at all. You're not a part of it. They'd probably just interrogate you, yeah, but nothing more. *buries his face against his knees* It's not just tearing you apart, you know. I hate being like this. I hate seeing things and I hate being sick, and all I want is to be normal, or at least close to it. I was close enough to normal the other way. I was happy, at least.
IC!Alfons: ::frowns and snuggles against him:: So you are saying that if you try and stay this way, where you do not harm anyone, you are unhappy, but if you help Envy, by making that knife and hurting people, it makes you happy..? And that is all there is to it? One way or the other, one of us is miserable?
T!Ed: *flinches a little at the snuggling* I guess so...
IC!Alfons: Is that real happiness, though, when you are... Off, murdering? Do you really prefer that to spending time being happy with me?
T!Ed: I... I think so... I don't know. I don't even know what's real anymore, so how can I answer that for you?
IC!Alfons: ::sighs and closes his eyes:: Can you try and hold on for a few weeks? The medicine will help you feel better.. More normal, happier like you should be, and you will not see and hear things that are not there... Bitte, I want you to be happy, but not if it means killing innocent people. I am sorry, but I cannot let that happen.
T!Ed: *peers at him from over one of his knees* ...What if I do it anyway, though?
IC!Alfons: I... I think once the medicine starts to work, maybe you will not feel like you should do that sort of thing... I do not want to think about what might happen if you do as Envy says, because I do not wish to remember what happened last time... Honestly, it makes me so terrified I feel sick...
T!Ed: You won't have to know at all~ And if being like that is normal for me? Truly normal? There won't be anything anyone can do, then..~
IC!Alfons: ::shudders and pulls away a little with a sigh:: Edward, bitte. I love you, and I cannot imagine life without you. I do not want to lose you, but I fear that that will happen if you start to become like that again...
T!Ed: Why would I start to become like that again when I'm already like that~? *smiles sweetly up at him* I remember how to make that material. It's all up here. *taps a temple lightly with a finger*
IC!Alfons: ::shrinks a little, looking at him:: Stop it. Bitte.
T!Ed: Stop what~?
IC!Alfons: That. Stop acting like that...
T!Ed: Just acting like myself, nothing different~
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head a little, watching him cautiously:: If that were true, I would not be suddenly starting to feel afraid of what might happen. That tone of voice you take on sometimes is not normal.
T!Ed: *drums his fingers on the couch, grinning brightly* It's my normal tone of voice, you know, nothing to get freaked out about~ I'm just the same ol' little Edward that you know and love.
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: I do not know how I am supposed to think that. Although maybe it is wrong of me to think that there is a normal part of you and a non-normal part. Your attitude can change so rapidly sometimes. ::sighs:: I want to stay by your side, honestly, but... I do not know how I am supposed to do that if I am afraid of you...
T!Ed: Then don't be afraid of me. Simple, right? *hops of the couch and starts pacing around the living room* You know, it'll be hard to get the ingredientst for that material again. I suppose I could just weld together some of the kitchen knives to hold me over for now...
IC!Alfons: ::frowns, watching him pace around:: So I am just supposed to not fear you when you get like this? I do not think that is possible... I mean, the way you get... If you will not let me even approach without threatening to hurt me, how am I supposed to keep from fearing you? How are we supposed to have a relationship if you will not let me hold you and kiss you and love you?
T!Ed: *stops, raising his eyebrows at him* You can still do those things. Not like I'm going to stop you or hurt you or anything like that..~ *snickers a little* It's the other people I'm going to make hurt. If I'm going to suffer like this, then they're going to suffer with me~
IC!Alfons: I do not want you to hurt anyone. It is not right to do that to innocent people.
T!Ed: Yet it happens anyway. And they're all far from innocent. They made me like this, so I'm going to hurt them.
IC!Alfons: Nobody made you like that. You are who you are, and you have nobody to blame for it. Nobody deserves to be hurt just because you want to hurt them.
T!Ed: Well, too bad! Because I'm going to hurt them if I want to~
IC!Alfons: I am not going to let you do that, Edward.
T!Ed: Yes you are. *smirks and trots into the kitchen*
IC!Alfons: ::gets up and walks after him slowly, shaking his head::
T!Ed: *giggles to himself and starts digging silverware out of the drawers, piling them up on the counter*
IC!Alfons: ::heads into the kitchen and leans against a counter, watching him tiredly:: Stop, bitte. This is the last time I am going to ask.
T!Ed: *glances at him and snorts, then surveys the pile, trying to decide how exactly he wants to transmute them*
IC!Alfons: ::claps and presses his hands to the counter, hoping to bind his hands with the countertop::
T!Ed: *snarls angrily, hands trapped beneath a layer of counter, and glares at him coldly*
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: Edward, I told you, I am not going to let you hurt people. I do not care if it makes you happy to do so. It is not right. And I do not want you getting arrested for violating your house arrest, because you will end up serving your sentence in prison instead. Honestly, this is all wearing me out. I went to find those herbs because I wanted to help you, so we could live a normal life together...
T!Ed: You know, you did have a choice to leave me~ You should have just gone with your dear, precious brother instead and left me here to do as I please. Oh, but no! I'm so fragile that I can't do anything for myself, now can I? Edward needs someone to watch him, to care for him, to do everything little thing for him. Apparently I'm just not good enough, so you know what? I'm going to do the one thing that I am good at, and that's butchering the hell out of people~
IC!Alfons: ::sighs:: If you insist on turning the good things into bad things, I do not know what to tell you. You should be happy I chose to stay with you, rather than making it into something else, like you seem to be doing. I love you, I have told you that over and over again. That is why I am with you. If you do not want me to be with you, then tell me, so we can both spare each other the pain that seems to haunt both of us. I was so happy yesterday to come back to you... I missed you so much... ::blinks a little, eyes watering:: But... Now, with you acting like this... Gott, I do not know what to do. I am tired, Edward, and I just want to be with you and be happy.
T!Ed: *growls* The fuck do you want me to make out of it? You love someone else that looks exactly like me and I'll always be second best to him, and you know it! But killing..~ Oh, killing is such a different subject. *laughs* No one is better at than I am~ Getting caught once? Heh, I can just easily run away, go back to Envy and be normal again~
IC!Alfons: ::hangs his head slightly:: I wish you would get over that. I know you probably will not, and it is unfair of me to hope you will, but... Edward, I stayed with you. I have continued to stay, through all of this. I have spent so much time with you, and I want to spend more time like we have before. If I thought of you as merely second best, that would not be the case...
T!Ed: Too bad~ You did that to me, so get over it. *tugs his hands in an attempt to get them free*
IC!Alfons: Get over what? You are the one who has to get over this issue you have with my brother. I do not understand why you are complaining when I have chosen to stay with you. What more do you want from me? ::sighs heavily::
T!Ed: Nothing~ Absolutely nothing except to be free from this fucking counter so I can do what I want to.
IC!Alfons: I am not going to let you massacre innocent people, Edward. And so you will stay right here, stuck to the counter, until I can be sure you are not going to hurt anyone.
T!Ed: You can't keep me stuck to the counter forever. Once I get out, I'm going to hunt them down, every single damn person. And you know what I'm going to do? Cut them right open, letting their guts spill onto the street~ Maybe they'll still be alive afterwards? I could sew them up, then, fix them, like the good little doctor that I am~
IC!Alfons: ::shudders:: Then you will have to stay right where you are until you give up on that desire. I am not going to allow you to do that.
T!Ed: I don't think so. *tugs harder at the bindings, determined to get himself loose*
IC!Alfons: ::claps and presses his hands to the counter again, molding more countertop around his hands and wrists::
T!Ed: *snarls and tries to kick out at him, completely losing his balance in the process, and topples over, knocking into the counter with a yelp*
IC!Alfons: ::strides forward and puts his arms around him, trying to help him to stand up and hoping he didn't hurt his wrist or anything:: Edward, calm down, bitte...
T!Ed: *struggles in his arms, growling with his eyes narrowed, and scrambles to get up on his own, only falling over again*
IC!Alfons: ::keeps a tight hold on him and continues to try and straighten him out:: Stop struggling, you are only making this worse for yourself...
T!Ed: THEN LET GO! *only struggles more furiously, refusing to let him help at all*
IC!Alfons: ::sighs and lets go of him, backing away:: Fine then. I just did not want you to hurt yourself.
T!Ed: *glares at him coolly and stands up, wincing as he puts his weight on his flesh leg*
IC!Alfons: ::frowns sadly, noticing the wince:: Are you alright?
T!Ed: Just fucking peachy, thanks. *transfers his weight over to his automail leg, muttering* Probably fucking sprained my ankle...
IC!Alfons: ::puts his hands in his pockets, watching him and not really sure what to do:: Ahm... I could get some ice for it...
T!Ed: Just go away and leave me the fuck alone. *turns away from him and hunches his shoulders, panting a little*
IC!Alfons: Are you sure you would not like some ice..? If it is really sprained, we do not want it to get swollen...
T!Ed: Oh, who cares? I'll just stand here the rest of the night on a sprained ankle and then when you go to sleep, I'll get myself free~
IC!Alfons: ::frowns sadly:: I am sorry, I did not want you to get hurt, really...
T!Ed: Then you shouldn't have done this to me! You should have let me go so that I could have done what I liked! Oh, but I forget. Edward doesn't matter, he never does. He can't be trusted at all, can he?
IC!Alfons: You do matter! You matter a lot! But no, how am I supposed to just let you walk off and kill people? It is true, I cannot trust you anymore, and it hurts me to admit that, but I do not know how I am supposed to trust you when you were about to go off murdering people!
T!Ed: Then go away and leave me alone!
IC!Alfons: No, because that will not solve anything! You would just go and kill people and I would be afraid constantly that you might try and hunt me down next! Besides which, I love you so much it hurts, and to just up and leave you when there is still a chance you might decide that I am important enough to you for you to stop acting like this would probably cause me more pain than I have ever gone through...
T!Ed: I. Don't. Care. I'm going to go find Envy and do what I want to again, and there's no way anyone will stop me! At least then I can matter.
IC!Alfons: You do matter, Edward. You matter to me. I do not want to leave you, and I do not want you to get hurt.
T!Ed: Kind of too late for that, isn't it? *grins wickedly and gestures towards his ankle with his head*
IC!Alfons: A sprained ankle is a better injury to have to suffer through than a bullet in your head. ::sighs::
T!Ed: I don't care because that won't ever happen~ *laughs*
IC!Alfons: It certainly will not if you stay in the apartment like you are supposed to and do not hurt people.
T!Ed: Well, I'm not going to do that, so get over it.
IC!Alfons: No, I told you already, if it is in my power to keep you from murder, then I will do so, even if you end up hating me for it. I love you, but I am not going to let you kill just so you can be happy. I have to draw the line somewhere.
T!Ed: And I already told you how much I cared about that. Like I said, I'll get free. You can't watch me all of the time~
IC!Alfons: How in the world are you going to get free with your hands buried in the counter, Edward? ::frowns:: I do not think you can do that, despite the fact that you are clearly one of the most intelligent people in the country. It would be a horrible shame to see that intelligence being put to use as a weapon.
T!Ed: I could still do it~ Watch, or better yet, don't. I'll do whatever I damn well please and no one, not even you, will stop me~
IC!Alfons: ::shakes his head:: You are not getting out of that, there is no way you can do it. Actually, no, that is not true. You can get out if you are let out, and that is only going to happen when I am sure you are not going to harm anyone.
T!Ed: *glares at him defiantly, trying to keep the pain off his face from standing on a sprained ankle, and remains silent*
IC!Alfons: ::shrugs and watches him silently::
T!Ed: *continues to stare him down, giving his hands a futile tug*
IC!Alfons: ::leans back against the wall behind him, hands in his pockets, eyes not straying from Ed::
T!Ed: *looks away, instead focusing his eyes on the counter, and whimpers quietly*
IC!Alfons: ::frowns, then sighs softly:: I am sorry about your ankle, I really am.
T!Ed: Go to hell. *hisses and shifts his weight again*
IC!Alfons: It is going to be rather difficult to avoid doing so, eventually. ::sighs and shakes his head:: The best I can do is to make my life a little better to try and make up for the eternal punishment I will undoubtedly receive after I die. ::raises an eyebrow at him::
T!Ed: Don't give me that bull. *turns his head slightly to resume glaring at him* I could care less what the hell is there after we die.
IC!Alfons: Oh, I know. Which is why you will be there with me. ::slides his back down the wall and sits on the floor with a sigh::
T!Ed: *snerks* I won't be going to hell at all. There's no such thing~
IC!Alfons: Well, enjoy that thought while you are able to, then. ::shrugs::
T!Ed: Sure will. *turns away from him again and pants from the effort of standing*
IC!Alfons: ::frowns and stands up, going to the freezer to get some ice::
T!Ed: *watches him from out of the corner of his eyes, scooting away a little as he goes past*
IC!Alfons: ::finds a dishrag and wraps it around the ice, then walks toward him slowly:: Bitte, let me help you out. I do not want you to be in pain when it is so easy to fix.
T!Ed: *narrows his eyes and scoots farther away from him, stifling a small cry* I don't think so.
IC!Alfons: ::takes a step toward him again and cautiously reaches forward to place a hand on his shoulder::
T!Ed: *jerks his shoulder and snaps his head forward, trying to bite his hand*
IC!Alfons: ::flinches and jerks his hand back:: I only want to help...
T!Ed: And I told you that I don't want your help. I want to be left alone!
IC!Alfons: ::stares coolly at him, then sets the rag with the ice on the deformed counter and shrugs:: Fine then. ::walks out of the kitchen::
T!Ed: *snorts and sits down on the floor as best he can, muttering furiously to himself*
IC!Alfons: ::goes and sits by the clockwork city, watching the bits of it in motion and trying not to think about anything else::
T!Ed: *presses his face against one of his arms and sniffles, trying to block out the pain in his ankle*
IC!Alfons: ::staring vacantly at the little city, yep::