I have a confession to make:
I have been battling Lord of the Rings addiction since I was 11 years old. It got the better of me all through Junior High, but I really thought I'd gotten it under control in these last several years. Then The Hobbit came out. And now all hell has broken loose again.
I think my biggest problem is that I don't have anybody to talk about and share it with. Back in Jr. High, I had a really good friend that was at least as crazy-obsessive as me (and probably more so, in hindsight), but I haven't talked to her in ages. My family and best friend were never quite as into LotR as I was, I'm pretty damn sure. My friends from college haven't even seen the older movies, let alone the new one, and the same to my roommates here. I don't expect much from my friends here, either, although I haven't seen them yet since I got back. There's the internet, which admittedly I didn't have/use back when I was 11, but that doesn't quite do the same thing as having a real person to fangirl with.
Part of the problem is that Lord of the Rings is like, the thing for me. Kingdom Hearts is the other thing, but I'm thinking LotR trumps it. I don't get this fangirlish about almost anything else, and I haven't had a Lord of the Rings flare-up in so long that I don't really know how to deal with it anymore. So it's really hard for me to put it out of mind and pretend to be a normal person. I feel like I'd gotten really good at pretending to be a normal person lately, at least compared to before, so this is worrying me because I don't want to mess things up. I've only been here half a year and I don't want to scare away the friends I've got so far by being too obsessive. I get that they're not 'real' friends if they don't like me for being me, but I do want to have people to hang out with in the coming year.
What I really want to do is reread the Lord of the Rings, maybe reread the Hobbit (even though I literally just did that), go watch the new movie again (which I may yet do tomorrow), and draw a hell of a lot. Some of these things are currently impossible (I don't have the books with me) and the rest is probably impractical, though at least school hasn't gotten too far yet. But if I don't act on at least a little of it, I might explode. So I'm thinking drawing.
How the hell am I going to survive another three years of this? How the hell did I even survive the first three?
I should shut up. I realize that this isn't important in the scheme of things, I just feel like my head's too full of stuff. [/ranting] Hope everyone's well.
Omittchi
I think my biggest problem is that I don't have anybody to talk about and share it with. Back in Jr. High, I had a really good friend that was at least as crazy-obsessive as me (and probably more so, in hindsight), but I haven't talked to her in ages. My family and best friend were never quite as into LotR as I was, I'm pretty damn sure. My friends from college haven't even seen the older movies, let alone the new one, and the same to my roommates here. I don't expect much from my friends here, either, although I haven't seen them yet since I got back. There's the internet, which admittedly I didn't have/use back when I was 11, but that doesn't quite do the same thing as having a real person to fangirl with.
Part of the problem is that Lord of the Rings is like, the thing for me. Kingdom Hearts is the other thing, but I'm thinking LotR trumps it. I don't get this fangirlish about almost anything else, and I haven't had a Lord of the Rings flare-up in so long that I don't really know how to deal with it anymore. So it's really hard for me to put it out of mind and pretend to be a normal person. I feel like I'd gotten really good at pretending to be a normal person lately, at least compared to before, so this is worrying me because I don't want to mess things up. I've only been here half a year and I don't want to scare away the friends I've got so far by being too obsessive. I get that they're not 'real' friends if they don't like me for being me, but I do want to have people to hang out with in the coming year.
What I really want to do is reread the Lord of the Rings, maybe reread the Hobbit (even though I literally just did that), go watch the new movie again (which I may yet do tomorrow), and draw a hell of a lot. Some of these things are currently impossible (I don't have the books with me) and the rest is probably impractical, though at least school hasn't gotten too far yet. But if I don't act on at least a little of it, I might explode. So I'm thinking drawing.
How the hell am I going to survive another three years of this? How the hell did I even survive the first three?
I should shut up. I realize that this isn't important in the scheme of things, I just feel like my head's too full of stuff. [/ranting] Hope everyone's well.
Omittchi