im falling apart. im so lost. i feel like im stuck. in a downward spiral. sinking. drowning. not doing anything. sometimes i think i should give up, like my grandfather. but no. i have loose goals. things i have to do. i have to see my children. i dont know what's going to happen to me though. i don't know if im strong enough to make it. im ( Read more... )

no more drugs.

lifes going by too quick.

vances friday was pretty intense. stayed up into the morning. then saturday afternoon cory and i went down to santa monica to meet the vogels there. taylors so cute and beautiful! shannon is so damn cool, wish i had become a better friend when we went to royal. paige's fun to have around too, sometimes makes me feel kinda weird hangin' out with ( Read more... )

what i'm saying is probably cliche
and really that is all this is anyway,
but for some reason i'm still bleeding
inside and i dont like to feel this way.
its moments like this that if i
had a god i might pray, and say to him,
"why the fuck do you pull this shit?"

Two weeks ago ( Read more... )

hey i made a new icon, cool huh?

Im back.

trip was fun. chicago, pennsylvania, missouri. mostly p.a.

i think someone slept in my bed.