Comments | omnify: So many less minutes.

omnify

So many less minutes.

Dec 02, 2006 00:43

I thought I'd write something a bit more...serious? I don't know. I'm not really one for thinking 'this is a milestone, I must...do something about it etc etc maybe I'll write down my thoughts...' I'm not making much sense, am I? However, I shall give this a go, even though I'll probably read over it even an hour later and cringe/be so amused ( Read more... )

change, work, 18th, alcohol, birthday

Comments 6

owai December 1 2006, 22:12:13 UTC

Have a happy day.

I know it's hard to actually feel happy when you feel uncomfortable, especially when so many people expect you to to be happy. And it just seems like you don't like being the center of attention, and the way you write makes it sound as if this is a rather bigger thing than it is here in the States. Though I've never been overly indulged on any of my birthdays, that's true. Our big ones are sixteen, because we get our driver's license (I didn't, when I was sixteen...It's also called Sweet Sixteen for girls, so I guess it's a landmark of maturity,) eighteen (because we can buy lottery tickets, vote, and purchase tabacco, and it's the legal age of adulthood, I suppose?) and 21 (which is the obvious age of drinking). Well I've passed two of those, and both of them were really rather uneventful. But then I haven't had a party for years--I won't even see my parents on my birthday ( ... )

omnify December 3 2006, 14:44:52 UTC

I was worried. The expectation to be happy when I didn't expect myself to be; it also came with the fact neither have I ever been overly indulged for any of my birthdays at all either. 18 is our big birthday; 16 and 21 don't really count for anything.

I suppose the whole issue with myself was that I really just wanted to be home; be home home just with my mama and daddy and my brother, where they would wake me up, have nice food, a cake at night, but otherwise it would be a normal day. That's all I wanted, and knowing that that was impossible when something else I didn't want was going to replace it hurt a lot, since my whole history with homesickness is rather depressing and stupid - it kills me. It's only by reading what you've said that I've come to realise this and it makes me so sad that you won't be able to see your parents since it means so much to me, and I would think would mean so much to you ( ... )

owai December 3 2006, 18:46:34 UTC

No, that makes sense. I understand totally that you would want something intimate--a lot of people are into huge birthday parties and things, but it depends on the kind of person you are. If you're very outgoing, and enjoy tons of people, then you would probably enjoy something like that. I've always expected too much from birthdays, myself--I think. Even when I have quite a few people, they don't turn out as spectacular as I want them. My favorite birthday of all was my 14th, when we went down to the waterfront in Seattle and watched the explosion of Mount St. Helens on the IMAX and then went to this super-tasty seafood place. And then it was only my mother and my two best friends ( ... )

go_hifreann_lea December 3 2006, 03:42:52 UTC

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE MARTIN. >3 ♥

Yeah, I've always seen it as kinda odd how much importance people put into these milestone birthdays. You're not actually going to turn into an adult overnight, but there's still that expectation that you will act differently. I can see how it would feel a bit heavy.

But I hope you have/are having/had a LOVELY TIME. *chu* don't get too wasted. >D

omnify December 3 2006, 14:47:50 UTC

^____^ He got me shot glasses. Heh. xD

Yes. It felt heavy only really in the last few hours of my 17-ness - and now I'm thinking what such a waste of upsetness that was. >>

THANK YOU :3. I DID HAVE A LOVELY TIME. And no I didn't~ :D

go_hifreann_lea December 3 2006, 19:34:44 UTC

Ahaha.

♥ Emoness tends to look silly in hindsight.

YAY. ^__^ b