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[onandoff]

I just ran two miles. It sure does beat the quarter mile run I attempted last week. My leg is on fire and I love it. It burns in a good way. Not in any area local to my wound, just the entire leg in general. I haven't breathed that hard in weeks. I was so out of shape and unconditioned. I started feeling exhausted about a mile into the run

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[__thedialtone]

"Why was I not more appreciative?! Why not more grateful? Why did I turn my back on hope of recovery (both physical and financial) and sulk? Why didn't I freak out? Why was I so calm?"

Just the way someone in a traumatic situation represses memories, your body did all of these things on purpose as a defense mechanism, because if you actually felt all of these feelings at that moment, your body and mind couldn't have handled it. Now that you are calm, rested, and healthy, you can allow yourself to feel EVERYTHING, and though it makes no sense that you didn't immediately understand how "fortunate" you were, now you know, which is a hell of a lot better than never knowing. It's strange how our minds and bodies are working so productively even when we are unconcious of it, huh?

[__thedialtone]

Strange was a poor choice. More like glorious, magnificent, wonderful, brilliant!

[onandoff]

You sure are perceptive Brisa. Thanks!

[__thedialtone]

Haha, it's the neuroscience nonsense talking. I'm cramming for a psychotherapy exam. :/

[cherrysmoke]

that's all i read about in college, but i never once thought it would happen to a close friend.

either way, this entry made me really happy, glad youre in high spirits :]

Looking forward to get involved

[anonymous]

Hi - I am certainly happy to discover this. cool job!