.........
Head. Please, meet desk.
Well, I just have to work harder from now on, don't I?
God, I can feel my stress levels rise just thinking about what's ahead. And what's frightening me all the more... I have access to things that could help me with my energy. Certain pills. I'm this close to actually consider taking drugs just to keep up and if that's the case... There seriously have to be something wrong with me, right? I just think I'm doing something wrong. I worked so damn hard on this and still I mess up and now... I don't know. And I don't want to bother anyone else with this, because when all is said and done... It was my decision to come here. It was my decision to take up med studies. So, it's more a case of you reap what you sow when you try and have all the cake, right? I... just need to keep avoiding the drugs. Oh please, let me be strong enough on my own, because... Ugh. No.
[ooc: And yes, every tag that's more than one word long is mun!tag, not muse!tag~ ♥]
Well, I just have to work harder from now on, don't I?
God, I can feel my stress levels rise just thinking about what's ahead. And what's frightening me all the more... I have access to things that could help me with my energy. Certain pills. I'm this close to actually consider taking drugs just to keep up and if that's the case... There seriously have to be something wrong with me, right? I just think I'm doing something wrong. I worked so damn hard on this and still I mess up and now... I don't know. And I don't want to bother anyone else with this, because when all is said and done... It was my decision to come here. It was my decision to take up med studies. So, it's more a case of you reap what you sow when you try and have all the cake, right? I... just need to keep avoiding the drugs. Oh please, let me be strong enough on my own, because... Ugh. No.
[ooc: And yes, every tag that's more than one word long is mun!tag, not muse!tag~ ♥]