Absence makes the heart grow fonder?

[ex_lovesbitc93]

It was almost dawn by the time I reached the safety of the lobby of the block of flats I’d been staying in. Seemed I’d stopped giving a toss about getting home before the nasty sun these days, not like I had anything to go home to save a bottle of Jack and early morning bloody telly shows. Which were worse now, than they’d ever been; Passions had

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[sexytarawitch]

I stood at the edge of the water watching the faint edges of the sun come up, my body and the demon that lived inside screamed to run and hide, yet my legs didn't move

[ex_lovesbitc93]

It’d been raining for a while and I was only third swig straight from the bottle when I felt it, something I hadn’t felt in over five years; my girl near

[sexytarawitch]

It felt like forever but I should have known he would come to the door before I made a move; we could always feel each other so I shouldn't have been surprised to see him at the door.

I heard his voice and my head shot up, my mouth wouldn't dare speak till I moved inside. I made my way slowly past him and the draw of him so close to me made me burn more then the sun ever would.

Licking my lips I pulled my jacket off, leaving me in a pair of tight jeans and a Vneck shirt that was cut way too low and clung to my body much to tightly. "I..."

My voice started to fail me and I could feel emotions that I haven't felt since before I died, since before I lost my soul consume me. I brushed my soaked hair from my face and looked at him, everything I wanted to say was in the only word I could muster. "Spike."

[ex_lovesbitc93]

I watched her walk in and I could hardly move she looked so beautiful. I knew I should be pissed at her, waltzing back into my life now, after so long but I could be, I mean hell, we’d agreed and never set a time limit…

Coulda bloody dropped me a line once or twice though.

I watched as she pulled off her coat, revealing her luscious body barley concealed by tight, wet clothes. God, only she could make me horny and pissed off at the same time and I spent a moment wondering if I should just shag her senseless right here or make her suffer for a while. Make her suffer the way she’d made me suffer over the last five years.

”Spike”

“Still my name, love,” I said, walking past her and picking up my fags. I tapped one out and clasped it between my teeth before lighting it and taking a drag. “Although it’s been a while, kinda surprised you remembered,” I said bitterly.

I tapped out another one and offered it to her.

“So how’s your wonderful boy, then? How’s Lindsey?”

Maybe I was sorer about this that I thought I was?

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“You’re the only one that ever has, love. All those others… just replacements… just toys so I didn’t feel so…”"I know what it's like to be a replacement." I whispered. "Everytime Angelus was away he'd pay attention to me. It was always about Angel...even with his heartbeat." I swallowed and shook my head. "When Angelus was there..." I shuddered and closed my eyes tightly, moving away from him and trying to collect my thoughts again

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She started slow, but I spose I should’ve expected it right from when I first saw her. Only been a few times since I’d known her that she’d been like this; tired and sad and a ghost of her former self, but stupid. Just after Red died and those pathetic wastes of space she called her friends were ignoring her and …and after I turned her, when she was so confused with her soul and all. I should’ve figured it out, I should have know but no. Bloody Spike was too wrapped up in his own hurt feelings to give a toss, or hell, even see.

And now all I could do was stand there and let her go until she was empty. I knew the drill.

. "He beat me, he ignored me and you left me. Nobody wants me, they never did..."Anger started to seep into my veins, my blood, and I could hardly see for the strength of it. I knew who she was talking about, it was easier to figure it. Lindsey, her golden boy had ignored her after the first while, once the novelty wore off, once the thrill of winning her from me had lost it’s shine and Angelus… I couldn’t even think

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He grabbed the belt from me and I flinched away, stiffening up my body and waiting for blows that I have become used to. Hours would blur and blend into day's, the weight of his whip and belt...anything he could use to scar my skin...

But he didn't. I swallowed hard, gasping when he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms, pulling my body close to his and keeping me tightly to him. The urge to pull away and get as far away from him as I could was stopped as he just tightened his grip on me.

“I love you, I want you and I did fight for you, if you remember, but there’s no telling you when you want to do something, you know that,”

I remembered the fights well, I remembered that he wanted me as his, posessing me like I was an object for him to have. I remember how much that upset me because I wanted them both. I wanted Lindsey and Spike in my life...I still felt like it was Spike's fault that Angel was in the picture. If Spike welcomed Lindsey more then...maybe I could have had my boy...

“And news flash, but I didn’t a bloody single

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"I want you, I've always wanted you. I'm sorry... I'm so sorry...Spike...Please forgive me. Please, I need you, I want you..."Thank god, she seemed to be coming around. I held her as she whispered those and other sweet promises into my ear and rubbed her back soothingly. Maybe she had sent letters, who knows but I never got any, then again doubt the posty’d have any idea who to deliver ‘em too… seeing as he thought some sweet young couple lived in this flat. The though of her taking the time to do that made me feel a little better, and I couldn’t help but smile against her hair

[sexytarawitch]

I laughed against his neck, nipping at his skin sharply. "Better do more than adore me mister." I teased, gently licking and sucking at his neck, moaning and whimpering as his fingers slid inside me, my hips rocking up and meeting his fingers.

"Oh god." I whimpered softly, parting my thighs and kissing him as he moved his body on top of mine.

"Tell me you love me."

Every thought flew out of my head and I arched up to him sharply, wrapping my thighs around his waist and arching up to him, feeling him slip into me deeper.

"Tell me you love me more than either of them. That you'll never go back."

I felt anger at that moment and I growled, fisting my hand in his hair and rocking my body hard to his, leaning in and nipping at his neck hard. "Stop." I hissed. "Stop making it about them." I gripped onto his shoulders and started to push him off of me. He was going to ruin this if he kept going.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

I felt her tense up when I said it, I don’t know why. She came back to me didn’t she, was it something we weren’t suppose to talk about or…

"Stop….Stop making it about them."Then I felt her pushing me off her, or trying to and not in a fun playful way, either. Anger and hurt lanced through me. Why couldn’t she say it? S’pose I was bloody right, wasn’t I? I was just something to fill in the time, she’d been gone soon… just like before. Well, bugger her and bugger that. I’d show her who she bloody well belonged to

[sexytarawitch]

He grabbed my wrists and pinned me down, it was something I knew he'd do and it didn't surprise me as he started to push into me harder. I cried out and sobbed softly as he pounded into me, the bed shaking so hard I thought it was going to break in two.

“We’re going to spend some time tonight refreshing your memory about some things, love,”

The grip got tighter on my wrists and I tried to move, pull him off of me but I was so worn out and weak that I couldn't. He kept slamming into me, making me sob and beg him to stop. I didn't want to make it about us verse them, he was doing that.

“Making it about us, why the bloody hell can’t you say it? Why can’t you ever choose me over them? Over him?”

"I'm here, I came back." I gasped, biting my lip and arching my back, desperate to get out from under him. "I did chose you, Spike..." But why couldn't he get that I'd still care?

“You’re gonna learn who you belong to, even if you don’t love me.”My eyes narrowed and I pulled away from his lips. "How could I love a posessive pathetic asshole

[ex_lovesbitc93]

“You bitch!” I spat angrily, but inside I felt more hurt than angry. All I wanted was for her to bloody… but then again I s’pose she was right, Dru left ‘cause I couldn’t leave it along, couldn’t bare to share her with her precious Daddy, no matter how far away he was. The hurt I felt increased and I felt myself start to lose control. I didn’t want it to be like this, I wanted it to be us, just us, she could’ve made them go away in a matter of words… it was all I wanted. But now…

Before I knew it I’d slapped her harshly across the face and began fucking her hard again.

“It can’t ever be just us, can it?”

I pulled out of her and flipped her over, pressing myself down on top of her and pinning her arms to her sides. “You’re all I want,” I said into her hair. “The only thing I’ll ever want. Why…fuck Tara why aren’t I good enough for you?”

The hurt was raging inside again and the only way I knew how to make it go away was to give it back to her. Lifting my body slightly I pushed my cock against her opening and started to enter her.

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I smirked and drug my nails down over his chest. "You might...oh fuck...have to refresh my memory." I teased, knowing full well what happened but wanting him to tell me. I so did love when he told me tales of when I was innocent. It seems so long ago.

"You were such a little slut. So hot for it, remember?"

"Must be getting old." I gasped, his fingers digging into my thigh as he pushed into me harder and coming. "I don't remember much..." I moaned, rocking my hips against his and rolling my hips hard to him, feeling him come inside me and wanting to make his orgasm harder.

“Fuck, I missed you so much Tara...Love you so much. Come for me, kitten.”

I panted hard and with all the effort I had I wrapped my thighs around him and flipped us over, pinning him down onto the bed and moving over him. "I missed you so much Daddy." I purred, riding his cock hard into me, feeling his come drip down between my thighs.

[ex_lovesbitc93]

I let her turn us over and watched as she moved above me. She looked like sin, hair all tousled, lips swollen her eyes heavily. As she rode me her tits bounced delectably and I reached up to fondle them. I realised I was still hard as a sodding rock inside her. Over two hundred but I still bloody had it.

“Gonna chain you up,” I promised, pinching her nipples hard in time with her movements. “Lock you away and bring you out when I want to fuck you. You’re never leaving me again.” I sat up and wrapped my arms around her, kissing her again, this time more gently, slower. She slowed her pace a bit and I felt her put her arms around me.

“My beautiful, wicked princess,” I whispered as I felt her near the edge. “Didn’t mean it, never loved anyone as much as I love you. You’re nobodies bloody replacement.” I ran a hand up her side and cupped her breasts, fondling it softly as I slipped another one down her back and over her ass, pressing my fingers against her entrance and slipping them inside just as she started to come.

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