man, i've gottttta get this Postal Service cd
This is really sad. I just did a survey. & I'm still listening to the same song. At least it's a different day? I was on Kara's myspace, I stole it from her. I swear, after this, I'm going to beddddd. =]
a n g e r section
do you have a quick temper?: for sure
what do you do when you're mad?: drive & call Shannon
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad? hit someone with a beer bottle. long story, but WHOOPS, the kid deserved it like mad.
ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: my mom & my sister, but that's about it
ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: my sister & i are known to get into physical fights at times, but uhhh.... =]
do you curse when you're mad?: yeah. usually!
c r y i n g section.
when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: i basically cry all the time now, not even for any good reason, i've just been really over emotional. just the last time i really cried was definately july 1st.
ever cried yourself to sleep?: many times
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: offfff course. definately kara's shoulder was there for me the last time i bawled my eyes out.
ever cried over the opposite sex?: haha yea. finally happy tears! [shannon. we've waited alllll year for this!]
do you cry when you get an injury?: not usually
do certain songs make you cry? oh yeah
can you make yourself cry?: nope
p a i n section.
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: sarah baldwin dying my freshman year, when the Lord takes someone so young so suddenly it's the worst trauma a person can endure
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: lied to myself for way too long
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: definately lying & talking behind their back
ever had a painful break up?: no, but i know when this is over... please don't let it be over anytime soon, don't know what i'd do without him... it's going to hurt like hell
what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: getting hurt is an inevidable thing
how depressed can you get?: to the point where i'll be in tears. but not much more than just crying & being really upset, i'm on medication, lol...
do you inflict pain on yourself?: physically, no. but emotionally, yes. i think everyone does in one way or another.
h a p p y section.
are you normally a happy person?: haha sometimes
what can make you happy?: my friends for sure, driving, nascar (nooo not lying), if it comes at the right time then definately the rain
do you wish you were happier?: sometimes, but if i were really happy then i wouldn't be who i am
what makes you the happiest?: of course.. a certain guy. my friends ie shannon rebecca & kyleeee. & my deodorant. it smells good man!
is being happy overrated?: sometimes
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: certain friends yes. others just rubs in the fact that time really does seperate all strong bonds.
can music make you happy?: bring back the old songs, baby!
l o v e section.
how many times have you had your heart broken?: hardcore definately once. i thought it was getting broken for a second time, but it ended up to be a good thing.
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: i wish i could say no... but. yeah, just a little.
have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: family & friends & my extended family from my church, that's it. & of course, God.
did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: haha no. but anyone who knows the story... "oh really? thank you!" that was my good line.
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: loved, no? but liked, yesss... my whole summer's basically revolved & evolved around it.
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: nope
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no way
h a t e section.
who do you actually hate?: i've got one person in mind. other people don't hate him, but i do. some things you just never work past, & i'm okay with that.
ever made a hit list?: haha no. it'd be too long. JK!
have you ever been on a hit list?: i don't know actually.. i usually make friends, not enemies. but then i make fun of all my new friends with my old ones.
are you a mean bully?: neverrrr
do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: yep. pretty much.
do you hate George Bush?: GEORGEEEEEEEEEE. I LOVE HIM LIKE CRAZY. if i weren't so obsessed with laura, i'd tell her to get out of the way. but basically, i'd marry either of them.
s e l f - e s t e e m section.
is your self-esteem extremely low?: it can be at times
do you believe in yourself?: in certain things, yes. like some stuff in school, i kick ass. other stuff, not so much.
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: to myself i do, & i do to my good friends. but to other people, i just smile & say thanks.
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: ugly: no, i've definately seen worse. dumb: in math & most sciences & the complexities of foreign languages, yes. fat: slightly, but hey it could be worse, & i've always got me a back up boy! (right shannon, ohhhhh)
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: nope
are you happy with who you are?: right now, yes. very happy.
do you wish you can be someone else?: i wouldn't want to be anyone else or anywhere else other than me right here & right now. jk, unless i could be the girl dale jr shacks up with next. HE WON TODAY!!