Chapter End.....

[oneblackstripe]

I spent 2 years of my life with him

Comments

[disco_vixen]

...you left the comments enabled. Nobody ever leaves the comments enabled on a post like this. You are a strong lady.

I don't think there's any comforting that works to make things like this go away faster. You have my permission to lie on the floor and cry for as long as it takes for it to stop. Don't listen to anyone but yourself and enjoy all the pain because it means that you are still able to feel. Then one day you get up and clean the drool off the floor and walk out the door and start living again. The fact that you can talk about this sets you miles past anyone else who has to recover from a situation like this. Just don't ever try to forget what someone meant to you. And don't ever forgive someone for what they did. If I've learned anything it's to love someone, alive or dead, asshole or saint, exactly the same no matter what happens. You keep them in your heart they're always with you. No matter what.

[oneblackstripe]

Indeed I did leave the comments enabled. I'm still not sure why but I think I really needed to hear everything that has been said. Especially everything you said. You have an amazing way with words....and it helps make this crazy rush of emotion make a little bit more sense. Thank you.

[disco_vixen]

glad i could help. i only know pain because of this year. i think i wrote enough "this fucking sucks" private posts to last a lifetime. i have pages and pages just writing "this fucking sucks". i can push that aside for now and help others. it's my way of balancing out the terrible things in life. yep. it fucking sucks. but it'll balance out eventually. for real.

:)

[oneblackstripe]

Yes...a real hug. It's been too long. And a beer...a real big beer!!

[chris_warrior]

oh sweetheart...

i just saw this.

omg.

i'm not sure what to say, except i never realized the extent of what you'd been through, and how... well, sort of similar in some ways it is to what i went through. and, my god, how i'd feel if i'd heard mike had killed himself.

i'm glad you relaize you can't "fix" anyone, change them a'tall really. but to want... to hope... to pray that someoen you can't help but love gets better...

i'm there with you.

sending a big, fuzzy, fierce, hug.

[oneblackstripe]

thanx hon.
Everything is still pretty surreal right now, but I definitely appreciate all the support. I'm just kind of numb.

[chris_warrior]

if you ever want an ear, feel free to call or email. given where i've been, i am almost completely unshockable.

i'm so sorry you're going through this.

lastly, i wish you some good sleep.

[mikeyberkey]

[hug]

[oneblackstripe]

Thanx. I need 'em!

[roman21]

:(

{hugs}