Things never go well for me, so I guess I've learned to keep things to myself even in the situations where you know saying what you want to say will probably benefit you and your "intentions", whatever they may be. Knowing that much, I still can't bring myself do it; speaking up when it comes to what is in my heart kills me, and almost brings me to ( Read more... )

It's almost surprising how much people can be such assholes. And it's definitely surprising for me to feel as angry as I did last night and am still feeling right now. Do people not understand that I am busy with things in my life? It's like as soon as I don't have time for things, people either replace me or start not caring or just give up on me ( Read more... )

So, I am now on horrible day #4. I've been undergoing this streak of bad luck that I am not going to go into detail with because there is just way too much to bitch about. I'm going to sum up my bad days by saying that:

I dislike people - and everything they bring to the metaphorical table. I dislike how everything I do, is watched and recorded. I ( Read more... )

Why is everyone being a massive jerk for a mysterious reason unknown to me? And it's funny because a lot of this negativity seems to be targetted only at me. Either I was a serial killer in my past life and karma is biting me in the ass or people insist on trying to ruin me. Well, all that is over because I can't care. So, if people want to be ( Read more... )

My view on boys is simple. I like things and I dislike lots of things. I decided to make a list of these things in order to create awareness. I am pretty sure the females wil enjoy this entry.

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Let's just say, I've forgotten how awesome a friend of mine is and how happy he makes me without even parting his lips. When he pulled up to my house on Tuesday night, I was really excited to see him because I haven't in so long. As soon as he got out of the car, I was raped with a massive hug and all of a sudden, all my problems were rocketed to ( Read more... )

( Blue Skies at War/The Bled/Senses Fail at El Mo... )

My entire life I've been nothing but nice to people. I have never been the one to stop talking to another. I was never the one to throw the first punch. I have never told someone that I despised them, but I have always cared about everyone and done everything in my power to make everyone happy. Even if it was just a smile from me on my worst of ( Read more... )

I loathe people who are not reliable. They are the reason why I am always let down, always questioning myself, and always second guessing who I can trust. So, I've finally decided to stop putting effort and trust into these particular people. Why would they even deserve it? And quite honestly, I don't care if I never see them ever again. If you ( Read more... )

Yesterday I updated about how nervous I was and whatnot. Well, guess what? It wasn't that bad. Sure it was a huge change but I've finally realized that maybe I found something that might be comfortable for me... at least at first. Sure, I haven't met anyone or even talked to anyone yet but I don't really care about feeling "alone" or whatever. It's ( Read more... )