the jester

[onedreamtree]

ariel called this morning to tell me that one of my old friends killed herself two nights ago. it's odd, i've never been speechless in my life, and all i could do was sit there. i can't decide whether i want to distract myself with stupid shit or just curl up in a ball and cry. when ariel called, she very quietly told me i should sit down. i always

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[trinitydawning]

Holy shit babe...I'm so sorry...I'd say more but this is one of those times when there's nothing that can be said, at least in a journal comment, that can do very much to help.
I miss you so much and I wish I was there in person for you! Don't feel guilty about your pain. Everyony has their reasons to hurt. It may seem like someone else's pain is more important of that they have more of a reason to be in pain, but it's just a different reason. Sometimes life hurts no matter what your situation. I love you. Come visit me..or I'll come visit you...either way we need to spend time together.
-me