anyone can give up,

it's the easiest thing in the world to do..

but to hold it together

when everyone else

would understand if you fell apart,

that's true strength.

i'm sorry if i'm being confusing.

i myself don't know what's going on.

there are many things going through my head.

i can be pretty crazy sometimes.

i've come this far in 2 months.
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nevermind what i said before.
i might possibly continue pursuing this..

who was I kidding?
he’ll never love me.

bennett.. i could smack you for saying
you were going to leave us for fvhs, lmao.
i love you so much buddy.

and kayla rease.
girl, you know you're the best.

u2 rickle <3

all these freakn mixed emotions..
the stupid things i've done.
i hate boys.

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i love him so much..

that i think i have to let him go.

this hurts so bad you just don't know.

seriously, i'm crying i wish it wasn't like this.

that it didn't have to be this way.

but he just don't care.

he doesn't even know what he means to me.

i'll never be to him what he is to me.

yet, i have no better days to look forward to.

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fortune cookies

you find beauty in ordinary things,

do not lose this ability.

you shall soon make a long

overdue personal decision.

i talked to him.

yes, and i missed him.

yearbooks today :)

movies saturday anyone?

house of wax :D

we've got you all figured out.

kayla, you know who i'm talking about.

me and kayla are masterminds ;)

tuesday was absolutely excellent.
school was a bit harsh, but everything worked out.
english was irritating as usual.

i couldn't finish these questions we were doing.

she didn't give me enough time.

i dislike that woman with a passion.

computer apps was kind of boring.

we had to show our powerpoints.

mine looked kinda plain compared to others.

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mission accomplished.
bad news and good news.
i'm going to miss you.

i can't breathe
i can't sleep
i'm barely hangin on..
no i don't cry
on the outside
anymore.

what am i so afraid of???

i need my push.
that adrenaline of frustration.
slap me somebody, please.
tomorrow, yes, tomorrow..

a dog died today.
only in front of these anguished eyes.
we were on the bus and there was a lady crying.
there was also a man crying.
in his arms lay a lifeless soul, never to return.
his tears divulged the sadness of a broken heart.
seeing the dog, lying in the mans arms..
i couldn't bear it.
i can't rid the image out of my head.
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i miss playgrounds.

we passed one on the bus.

it reminded me of how simple life used to be.

when the love we got from our parents was all we needed.

the times where we didn't care who was watching..

if we wanted to do something crazy, we just did it.

i'm striving to get that little soul back.

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i love the rain and thunderstorms <3

how fan-FREAKN-tabulous is this?

i simply can't wait until tomorrow.

i'm going to the youth rally with crystal saturday night.

then i'm going to spend the night and go to church with them sunday :]

i didn't talk to chris today :/

he had on the hottest shorts!!

omg, i don't even want to go there..

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