Ok I have a boyfriend and his name Id Brian Anthony Dvorak.. and I am way effing head over heels for him.. I am so sick and tired of everyone telling me to do what I need to do for myself.. then people get all pissed off at me about it... something came to my attention today that he saw a previous entry that I myself did not write and it hurt him I ( Read more... )

i hurt myself today
To see if i still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But i remember everything

They painted up your secrets ( Read more... )

hmm I dont know what Quixotic means.. but its sounds fun. Today I think I will see brian I dont know where he might come over here i might go over there later.. we dont know yet... but hmm i am bored.. if you dontknow me and you read my journal. IM me on aim or something.. I'd love to talk to ya!!!

You know the High you get when you can see the blood running and you can taste the tears on your cheeks as your pain runs out of your body.. Its times like these when I miss those cutting days.. I guess now i dont have to miss them anymore... cause this pains to deep to let it keep dwelling..I need to be relieved... I hope you can forgive me... ( Read more... )

This morning I woke up and got ready to go to the beach. Chelsea and I went and had an awesome kewl time.. i got really sunburnt though. On my way home from cardiff Brian called and i thought today was going to be an awesome day.. I asked him if he wanted to come over for dinner and to go swimming.. he said Maybe and if he couldnt hed call me later ( Read more... )

Well hmmm.. I cant wait to get my camos... brayden had some pink ones !!!!! hmm what kind are you gonna get now???? Troy and i match we both got the city camo.. which is the black grey and white ones.. hmmm I cant wait till i get mine in the mail... ahhh omg i cant wait.. i wonder how many days its gonna take ( Read more... )

I wantpink camo shorts.. or any coma shorts for that matter??? any good i deas of where to get them.. dude i havent seen Brian in like forever.. I miss him soooo much!!!!! He said leave tomorrow open so hopefully I will see him then...if not i might cry. I wrote him a note yesterday.. like we did when we were in school about my day.. it will ( Read more... )

Hey Ya'll I just email underoath and asked them when they are coming back to this part of town.. hmm i hope they answer me.. Anyone going to the July 30th show?? at soma.. it is going to be so grand. Well I had soccer tonight and I am soooo tired because we had to do a lot of bleacher runs and track running and some crunches and push ups too.. i am ( Read more... )

Hey does anyone know how to change the background on here so it isnt so boring???? iff sooo reply to thi.. and i will try to figure something out!!! much love

Nicole