i feel so empty.

so unaccomplished.

i hate the summer.

I graduate today.

Im really excited.

Time to close the book on high school and begin a new chapter in my life.

=)

i love my girlfriend. i love my friends. i love my family. i love my teachers. i love my cello. i love that there is no more high school. i love that im going to college. i love that i graduate in 5 days. i love that next weekend is going to be hell. i love that orchestra camp is coming up soon ( Read more... )

I'm really nervous about my recital Saturday. What if people do not show up? What if people do not like it? What if  I mess up terribly and embarrass myself? Ugh. So many what ifs. But I can not get it out of my head how nervous I am. Maybe, I am excited as well I guess. Ready to get it over with, well actually I am ready to prove to people that I ( Read more... )

i fuck everything up. why cant i get past this? why does this always hang over my head and always get the best of me? why cant i stand my ground and resist the urge? i hate it. i hate me.

im sorry. im fucking horrible.

aka another step to take before graduation. well that step has been taken. and it wasnt that exciting....oh well. at least its over with. the beach house was okay. just awkward, since im not real close to any of those people cept veronica, levi, and margarita. oh well. vern and i had a great time no matter what ( Read more... )

There are only 3 weeks left of school, left of high school for us seniors, and it seems like everything is falling apart. We tried our best to keep everything glued together up until this point, but it seems like everything is buckling underneath as it has potential to crash at any moment. What's happening to everyone to make this happen? Are we ( Read more... )

i can just rant on here like i used to and not bother anybody. that certainly is fun. sooo i have my last calculus 2 test on monday before our big final and i DONT want to study!!! i hate it and i dont care anymore. im gonna do bad anyways cuz i dont understand this stupid crap or care enough to understand....which is why i probly dont understand ( Read more... )

soo yeah i dont update on this. but myspace isnt letting me do anything on it, much less try and type a blog on it. oh well. i wasnt planning on writing something for people to read anyways and im not sure who all reads this....oh well. wait, can i set this to private? idk. soo anyways. why do i screw everything up? all the time? with everything ( Read more... )

hahah im updating my livejournal...that has not been done since...january?? thats odd. but im really bored and there is nothing else to do. i remember when i had to write one of these everyday and i just loved it. i need to go back and read some of my old stuff...that should be interesting. could find out how much i have changed since then..if i ( Read more... )