i hate waiting. waiting for something that will determine the rest of my life is nerve racking. i'm terrified. i think i'll be happy and sad no matter what the out come is. i want this but then i don't.

on another note. my mom, nanny, papa, little bro and sis, and uncle are coming to visit on wed. i miss them.

fuck you. i fucking hate you. you just need to let me go and move on. why would i want to be with someone that makes me fucking miserable? just because you still love me doesn't mean that i'll get back with you. i've moved on and found someone so fucking amazing. yeah he isn't you but he if so much fucking better than you will ever be!

my brothers friend gave him a pit bull puppy. well not really a puppy, she is like 2-3 months old i think so she is getting big. she is the sweetest pit bull ever. i'm terrified of pit bulls but when i came home the other day and went in to the backyard she came running at me and i freaked and my brother told me to just stay there and she came up ( Read more... )

my uncle passed away saturday. he is in a better place.

GO BOSTON! GO FUCKING RED SOX! FUCK YEA!!!

it's raining. i love it. its so romantic. kisses in the rain are the best.

yeah the flu sucks. i had it really bad saturday but i'm feeling better. yesterday i felt like shit at work and i was having a really bad night and i called jj on my brake to tell him that i was having a shitty night and that i missed him. he called me a few times while i was working but i couldn't answer my phone so when i got out of work i called ( Read more... )

i woke up with the flu. i feel like shit and my manager wont let me have the night off. i hate her. i'm gonna go and be mean to every one. i don't care if i get fired. my health is more important than my job. i mean i've been throwing up all day.

went to the jimmy eat world signing yesterday with jj and my brother. i got my poster signed and two cd jacket sleeves signed. i felt like a little girl when i saw them. i've been listening to those guys for 5 years. wow. they are really nice. school has been going pretty good. i don't go as much as i should though. its hard to wake up next to jj ( Read more... )

jj: i want you to be my girl......
me: i want to be your girl....
jj: good...
me: good....

things are just getting great....